Connection between feeling emotions and the body

Hi Chris.

These are good questions that many people have.

"Feelings" refers to the deeper emotions, and has nothing to do with the distracting symptoms. Always remember that the physical symptoms are there to distract you, which is why you need to get in the habit of treating symptoms as unimportant and not worth your attention.

But here's what's even more important, and often misunderstood :

"Worry", and "Anger" are not deep repressed emotions! They are very shallow feelings, and they can also act as distractions, covering up much deeper pain, and primal fears.

Use the exercises in the Structured Educational Program to really dig deep into how the very young boy that you were really felt about the abuse by your brother. Go even further, and ask how that little boy felt about not being protected by his (your) parents from the abuse?

THAT is where TMS comes from. But be forewarned: your brain does NOT want you to go there and it will do whatever it can to convince you not to, including worsening symptoms, and trying to convince you that I'm full of shit.

Maybe I am. But fighting back and "going there" worked for me.

 

Thank YOU for asking this question! Not only is it a good one, but this is a really great example of how repressed emotions can stem from issues that aren't overwhelmingly traumatic. The things I uncovered in my own childhood weren't even as bad as bullying - they were kind of normal family issues that led to me feeling rather isolated and awkward at a very young age - issues which actually resolved as my (three) younger siblings got older and less needy. But that little girl who was left to her own devices because there were too many demands on her parents had never really got over the emotions of isolation and abandonment- and my brain, in its primitive attempt to protect me, repressed it for decades.

 

Wow, I just had an "Aha!" moment on another thread, where someone else mentioned bullying in childhood. Here is my new, two-part realization:

- The goal of the bully is to Isolate the individual from the group. Bullying, of course, is a primitive behavior, based on territorialism and genetic dominance (ie: breeding). But more importantly, Isolation is a really important deep emotion, and a scary one that our brains will repress, because community is so important to our survival.

- Even more importantly for your awareness: when a parent does not protect the child from being bullied, it leads to Isolation's emotional cousin: Abandonment. Abandonment is a HUGE emotional issue for human beings - and another one that is regularly repressed by our primitive brains.

Personally, I think that everyone needs to get in touch with these two emotions, which I am confident exist in the repressed depths of every single person who ever lived.

 

Considering that you started out by saying that you have a hard time expressing anger, this sounds like progress! And the kind of anger that you let loose sounds more like honest rage, which our brains are really good at repressing, ESPECIALLY if we grew up repressing any signs of rage.

Even more useful to your progress, now that the rage has been released (and your fearful brain understands that you survived it) would be some honest journaling which explores how this event really feels at your core - in terms of the deep issues such as self-esteem and community, your sense of security, providing for your family... etc.

Frustratingly for most of us TMSers, who crave order and control, there's nothing either black & white or linear about any of this

 

All I can tell you is that the master of journaling (she calls it "JournalSpeak"), Nicole Sachs, advises writing and then destroying what you write.