I've been suffering from back pain and spasms for a year since an MRI revealed a bulging disc and degeneration. During that year I've had virtually no real anxiety as I've been transfixed on my back, and so I've had a bottle of Valium sitting untouched behind anti-inflammatories and muscle relaxants. Since accepting my TMS and beginning the Structured Educational Program a week and a half ago I've had a decrease in pain and increase in mobility, but also an increase in anxiety and muscle twitching all over my back (which is desperately trying to turn into a spasm). On two occasions this week, including today, I took half a Valium and the twitching and muscle tightness would subside quickly. My question is, am I making it much more difficult on myself to fully recover by taking these pills? On the one hand, the ability of the Valium to end my muscle clenching only further cements my belief in TMS, but I don't want to be dependent on it. In the early stages of working through TMS is it okay to occasional take a pill to help or should I be going "cold turkey"?