hi ,
last week i started with the educational program. monday and tuesday i was in 6/from 10. I did a lot of working on my repressed emotions and the introduction helps me a lot. On wednesday i felt better ... thursday the pain level became very low .. friday, saturday and sunday ( into the afternoon) i was painfree!!
Maybe sometimes for a short time, but i could make the pain over. it was so nice and i loved my life
What was happening?
Mo, Thuesday i felt alone, depressed and with a lot of emotions ... i decided to hold on and show my emotions over the next days... i focused on the psychological matters. i m very emotional and there a a lot of feelings in my mind and body. in the last years i didnt feel them ... i only felt pain. it was strange, because all my nervous, anxiety and sorrows i cant feel ... i was stoic, and normally i m not this kind of human. i wasnt scared of anything ... only of the pain ...my whole focus where on the pain and in real life i could do everything without anxiety. i hope you will understand.
also, wednesday and thursday i got many positive reactions in my work ... i felt better , a little bit proud. when the pain goes i feel so much better! i dont know why but friday, saturday there are no pain ... it was so relaxing. maybe because i have worked with my feelings and the nice words in my work?
my pain is a jumper
right side, left side on the hips, legs, buttocks ... only on one side after sleep and sometimes during the day the pain moves on the other side. when i have panic or another hurt like ( feel sick) then the chronic pain in my back is not there. ok, however.
sunday i felt a little pain , but i m focused on emotions ... i drive with my car ... the pain wants to start and i spoke about my anxiety, the pain moved away. i was invited to my boyfriends grandmum party. before the others came into the restaurant the pain got worse ... but than he moved away . .. while i was speaking to my boyfriends aunt ...she is on tramal because of her back pain and will take a surgery ... my pain flares up ... ok , i u derstand you pain, i thought and he goes
the afternoon was ok, but than the pain comes back and i thought no, no, no.... the days where so great! i dont want it! i did my journaling ... to understand what is inside me? today the pain is back. .. im alone today, not at work, free day .. tomorrow i will go to the podiatrist and wednesday my psychtherapie starts... maybe im afraid of this week, and thats why the pain comes back? i will hold on and relax ... at least nothing helps me more than the psychological work on me and i had tried a lot.
i know that healing is a process... but on weekend i thought, yess i have my life back ... it is only tms and now there are steps back , its hard brrr... but i will learn to manage it
nick
last week i started with the educational program. monday and tuesday i was in 6/from 10. I did a lot of working on my repressed emotions and the introduction helps me a lot. On wednesday i felt better ... thursday the pain level became very low .. friday, saturday and sunday ( into the afternoon) i was painfree!!
Maybe sometimes for a short time, but i could make the pain over. it was so nice and i loved my life
What was happening?
Mo, Thuesday i felt alone, depressed and with a lot of emotions ... i decided to hold on and show my emotions over the next days... i focused on the psychological matters. i m very emotional and there a a lot of feelings in my mind and body. in the last years i didnt feel them ... i only felt pain. it was strange, because all my nervous, anxiety and sorrows i cant feel ... i was stoic, and normally i m not this kind of human. i wasnt scared of anything ... only of the pain ...my whole focus where on the pain and in real life i could do everything without anxiety. i hope you will understand.
also, wednesday and thursday i got many positive reactions in my work ... i felt better , a little bit proud. when the pain goes i feel so much better! i dont know why but friday, saturday there are no pain ... it was so relaxing. maybe because i have worked with my feelings and the nice words in my work?
my pain is a jumper
right side, left side on the hips, legs, buttocks ... only on one side after sleep and sometimes during the day the pain moves on the other side. when i have panic or another hurt like ( feel sick) then the chronic pain in my back is not there. ok, however.sunday i felt a little pain , but i m focused on emotions ... i drive with my car ... the pain wants to start and i spoke about my anxiety, the pain moved away. i was invited to my boyfriends grandmum party. before the others came into the restaurant the pain got worse ... but than he moved away . .. while i was speaking to my boyfriends aunt ...she is on tramal because of her back pain and will take a surgery ... my pain flares up ... ok , i u derstand you pain, i thought and he goes
the afternoon was ok, but than the pain comes back and i thought no, no, no.... the days where so great! i dont want it! i did my journaling ... to understand what is inside me? today the pain is back. .. im alone today, not at work, free day .. tomorrow i will go to the podiatrist and wednesday my psychtherapie starts... maybe im afraid of this week, and thats why the pain comes back? i will hold on and relax ... at least nothing helps me more than the psychological work on me and i had tried a lot.
i know that healing is a process... but on weekend i thought, yess i have my life back ... it is only tms and now there are steps back , its hard brrr... but i will learn to manage it
nick
