Update, because I was told to post after the stress from the holidays wss over, so here I am, I quit my job last week. The pain is so bad in my right arm and wrist, as well as underneath the breast bone, (costochondritis) I was literally crying when I got home from work. I had the job for almost 8 months, but it was freezing in the building, I had switched apartments, thinking it would help with the stress, but alas, it did not. Every day, I would to work, and just push through the pain. I told myself over and over again that I was OK and that there was nothing wrong with me. However, it didn’t matter, because the pain would go from a headache, stomach issues, muscle issues, tendinitis, or rib pain, etc. In fact, I have read about so many new members stories, and they fit mine almost exactly. It’s always something to do with what I find the most passionate about, which is writing. When I get on the computer, and I use the mouse, especially repetitively, I get these pains, into my shoulder down my arm, but sometimes it causes muscle spasm’s that are very painful. I keep reading that TMS stays around because of the big elephant in the room, and my brain is trying to figure out what that is. At first, I thought it was that I just didn’t want to write anymore and I was tired of it. I did a number of career assessments to figure out what it is I’d like to do, and librarian was my number one thing, and then historian, and writer. Unfortunately, there are no jobs associated with those two and there are tons for writing. I then thought maybe it was the subject, I was writing on, which was everything to do with dental topics, which I already have a phobia about. However, I still hurt. I’m on my iPad, but I’m not typing like I was doing for eight hours a day, and instead it seems like old pain in my ribs has come back. So now, I am beating myself up trying to figure out what it is that’s going on. I am doing daily mantras, telling myself Im OK, soothing myself, and just keeping on keeping on, going back to TMS books and journaling, all to no avail. I feel like I really need to see a TMS doctor, but I don’t know where to look. I’ve tried three or four that are either not doing consultations anymore, or who won’t with me on Skype. Anyway, I want to get another job, but I don’t want to be in the middle of trying to figure out what ths pain or emotion that doesnt want to be felt that is keeping the pain going, and end up in the same situation I just did at my last job. What’s frustrating is that I'm very good at my job, and have the most experience. I can’t see myself being in retail, fast food, a receptionist, or anything else that deals with customer service directly. I just want to write something I’m passionate about, but not have the trigger every time I’m on the computer. I know that Alan did the tick with someone who was in the same situation I am in, having her typing while he was talking. I need smeone to do that with me to aid in getting my brain to accept the TMS diagnoses and the fact that there is nothing structurally wrong with me, because even though I accept it, my subconscious is putting her hands over her ears and throwing a major tantrum. You’ve probably heard way too much from me lately, I am just desparate to kick this. If this was only months into this work, I would be more patient, but this is going on 5 years! Please, if there is anyone you can recommend, please let me know. I have a wonderful therpaist who believes in TMS, but she’s not a doctor. I can’t, no I refuse, to sit home and let TMS beat me. We are working on forgiveness, which she said was a huge aspect of healing, but that it could take awhile, but in the meantime, to keep just “doing it.” (Living as if TMS isn’t a thing...yeah right) I would really love to add my success story in here. TL, DR: quit my job that was triggering “RSI” and trying to figure out the big elephant in the room that keeps TMS going. Pain stays, even when not working on the computer, and becoming quite frustrated with this whole thing. Need a TMS doctor to kick this, but can’t find one in my state or one I can work with remotely. I know this is nothing new to you all, and I appreciate any and all responses in advance.