Let me firstly say I know exactly how I sound - one of those "trouble healers" who is still posting and reading the forum after two years of "trying everything". I'm not going to get specific about my exact symptoms because they really don't matter as much as my state of mind right now, and I know how susceptible I was to reading about health conditions etc so I would rather not name them. I had my symptoms for years before discovering TMS, managed by antidepressants I lived a pretty full life, I didn't understand my symptoms but I had no desire or idea how to heal them so I just got on with life. I'm not quite sure how I managed this looking back, probably the ADs numbing everything? Plus no one had ever suggested I could or would ever feel better, so I didn't try anything really. Anyway, a big life event happened and a brand new random symptom appeared that I truly couldn't handle. This led me to find the tmswiki - and the downward spiral that followed. I worked with a TMS therapist who was probably great but one of their suggestions was looking for emotions everytime symptoms were bad... totally get it. But my symptoms were low-level and 24/7. Suddenly I started looking for when they were better/worse etc. and my focus increased on them - they started getting worse. I was reading TMS forums obsessively and developed new symptoms I had read about on here - go figure. I found a therapist who specialises in neuroplasticity - symptoms get worse yet again. Because I'm panicking that I have these pathways I need to fix. You get the idea. I was totally fine driving until she suggested most people with my symptoms can't drive. Now I have my worst symptoms while driving. My point really is ... how the f*ck do I start to undo all this? I never TRIED to feel worse, it just happened over time. My brain is obviously VERY powerful and I'd really like to harness this power for good purposes, but I am just feeling a bit lost. Everything I do seems to reinforce the problem. Sidenote: I have truly exhausted the repressed trauma route, I got stuck on past mistakes using this approach and was extremely mentally unhealthy for a period of months. I am VERY aware of my daily emotions, the issues in my life (financial, career, relationships but I truly feel these are a result of the situation I'm in from state of my health i.e. not working, not financially independent anymore etc) I have just found out I am pregnant and it's dawned on me that my brain is fully occupied with symptoms to the point where I can't even think about how I feel about it outside of "how will I cope with my symptoms etc" Sorry for the ramble, any advice on how to work with a new mindset would be appreciate, given that I truly believe my issues are psychological and not physical in nature.