Colly
Beloved Grand Eagle
Hey all. I'm finally able to breathe a little after what was a very difficult six weeks. I had a very challenging period at work which required me to work 12-14 hour days and weekends non-stop. In the early weeks my daily affirmations and self-talk was getting me through the day, but by the sixth week my body was saying "ENOUGH", and I was just in survival mode. One of the biggest stressors for me was being deceived by a work colleague who was point scoring with the boss, and that, more than the relentless pressure and long hours broke me last week.
The moment I realised I was being deceived, I felt unbearable hurt, anger and resentment. Thankfully my TMS "Jiminy-cricket' voice came to the rescue, telling me to find a quiet space and let out my emotion. I wept for a good twenty minutes, and all the while, thinking "just get it out Colly, and then forgive, forgive forgive". The forgiveness bit was hard, and it didn't happen immediately, because I still felt hurt and betrayed by this person. Then I realised that the best solution for MY peace of mind IS to forgive, as this releases my resentment, which was only harming ME not my colleague.
I'm happy to say that when the little nagging voice of resentment creeps in again, I quieten it again and again, until it stops. I'm still hurt, but if I hang on to this memory it will affect my working relationship with this person, which again, only harms me…
It's a blessing to have discovered TMS healing, and to be able to use this first-aid toolkit when the going gets tough.
The moment I realised I was being deceived, I felt unbearable hurt, anger and resentment. Thankfully my TMS "Jiminy-cricket' voice came to the rescue, telling me to find a quiet space and let out my emotion. I wept for a good twenty minutes, and all the while, thinking "just get it out Colly, and then forgive, forgive forgive". The forgiveness bit was hard, and it didn't happen immediately, because I still felt hurt and betrayed by this person. Then I realised that the best solution for MY peace of mind IS to forgive, as this releases my resentment, which was only harming ME not my colleague.
I'm happy to say that when the little nagging voice of resentment creeps in again, I quieten it again and again, until it stops. I'm still hurt, but if I hang on to this memory it will affect my working relationship with this person, which again, only harms me…
It's a blessing to have discovered TMS healing, and to be able to use this first-aid toolkit when the going gets tough.