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This is really weird. I asked to pain to move and it moved.

Discussion in 'General Discussion Subforum' started by c90danwaiel, Oct 13, 2016.

  1. c90danwaiel

    c90danwaiel Peer Supporter

    Hi all,

    To let you know where I'm at right now, I'm currently on Day 5 of the SEP, and have known about TMS for about six days now. I've been suffering from pelvic pain for the past four months now.

    I admit, I cheated a little bit today, and ended up following up with an appointment with a sports medicine doctor. I'd made the appointment weeks ago, and although I was really doubtful it'd end in anything useful, I didn't want to not go after having waited so long. Still had a little bit of doubt it was 100% psychological.

    She frankly seemed a little confused as to what was causing my condition, and so I left feeling fairly confident this was psychosomatic.

    Ended up stopping at a store on the way home from the sports medicine doctor, and noticed my feet were feeling a little warm. Decided, what the heck, I'd ask my unconscious to give my pelvis a break and move my chronic burning pain to my feet.

    It moved. With help from me, but it moved. By switching my focus, my feet began burning and the pelvic pain stopped. There seemed to be a direct, rapid relationship between the two - one would subside, the other would almost immediately take over.

    At first, it kept wanting to switch back from my feet to my affected pelvic areas. But then a few hours later, the pain and focus seemed to 'stick' onto my feet. Got home and took my socks off. My feet were glowing red.

    I've been barefoot for about ten minutes now, and the burning is still sticking with my feet. I took a picture even, as proof to myself in the future. I've shown my family, who up until now were skeptical and didn't quite believe me. They're a bit weirded out now.

    I usually have fairly cold feet, which I thought was due to poor circulation. It's a cold, rainy day outside, and my feet are now glowing red.

    This is my proof of TMS. I don't have any more doubt.

    I've never been more happy to have burning red feet.
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  2. c90danwaiel

    c90danwaiel Peer Supporter

    I'm now second guessing myself (OCD shining through), and realizing that I have been walking a lot today. However, even if that resulted in red, burning feet (which it normally doesn't for me), it allowed it to be a catalyst for the burning pain I usually experience in my pelvis to transfer to my feet. The burning got really quite bad, just like my pelvic pain. I've never had that intense burning, even from hiking 10+ miles before.
  3. Ines

    Ines Well known member

    People can walk w/o having burning pain in their feet. Trust your intuition. Your first post was beautiful. Keep going and listen to your soul. It's pointing you in the right direction.
  4. c90danwaiel

    c90danwaiel Peer Supporter

    Thanks for the reply, Ines :)

    This morning, I was still able to shift the burning pain to my feet. I've been doing it all day actually. Pain has been going other places too, like my knees and stomach - it's shifting like crazy. Managed to reconvince myself fully that this is TMS. Yesterday, I was fairly exhausted (got no sleep the previous night and had to spend 3 hrs each way to get to the sports medicine doctor), and so with some rest, I was able to get a clear mind. Last night, my feet were burning at a level they never had before. That wasn't normal for me. TMS is the only explanation that makes sense.

    This morning, I actually didn't wake up in pain. I feel like I've come to an understanding with my subconscious, and we're going to work on things. It can burn on in my feet, and I'll stick to my journaling and we'll work on things. Sounds really weird to say that, but it's the best way I can describe where I'm at right now. Think I've got some insight as to what my buried repressed emotions might be. Ended up listening to some quite loud music on my drive to the doctor yesterday and shouting out loud about a situation that I'd kind of forgotten about. And my pain subsided for 15 minutes.

    I'd also forgotten that prior to my pain, much of my time had been spent going over and over about this situation. I'd also angrily mutter to myself, somewhat compulsively, throughout the day about this situation (with swear words too!). That's still happened since my pain developed, but it's occurred at a much lower rate. Seeing how the pain has been distracting me from that. The pain also took away my regular bike rides from me, when I did a lot of introspective thinking. I lost an outlet, and I'm excited to take that up again.

    Had a bunch of other clues yesterday as well that this is TMS. Was walking and had a sharp pain in my left foot. It kept getting worse and worse as I kept walking, and I had the panicked thought that it was something really serious. Kept walking though. Told myself it was TMS and the pain went away entirely.

    So, I'm 100% convinced. Sometimes, I feel like I'm 99.9% convinced. But I know I can reverse this. I'm no longer panicked this this is permanent. I haven't been this calm since my placebo physical therapy cure a month and a half ago.

    Very glad this forum exists and feeling very grateful. I've spent so much time on the internet researching about my pain, and for every symptom I thought I had, there was a forum - whether it was for chronic prostatitis or pudendal neuralgia - of people who were seriously suffering. It fed into my fear of pain and I think contributed to where I'm at now. This forum really surprised me though - so many positive stories and a lot of hope.

    So I'm in a really good place now, thanks to this forum. I might actually lose access to the internet (giant storm headed our way here in the Pacific Northwest where I live), but I'm going to print out the Structured Educational Program material for the next few days and work on it on paper, in case the power likely goes out.
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  5. Ines

    Ines Well known member

    Stick to it. You will be surprised how your life will change. I remember thinking that I thought people were lucky when they had shifting pain when I first started because that was more proof it was TMS.
    Good luck with the storm. I just saw that on the news.
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  6. riverrat

    riverrat Well known member

    So glad to hear of your optimism! It helps give me some hope. Can I ask what your pelvic symptoms are or diagnosis you might have been given?
  7. c90danwaiel

    c90danwaiel Peer Supporter

    Glad it gives you hope! Crazy to think I was curled up in the fetal position on my bed just six days ago, feeling extremely hopeless myself. It's been a crazy week!

    So my symptoms were somewhat in line with the symptoms you might find for chronic non-bacterial prostatitis or chronic pelvic pain syndrome. Just think of all the areas in your pelvis you might feel embarassed talking about and I've had burning pain there. I thought I had a UTI at first, but those tests came back negative. The pain was initially acute and limited to my urinary tract, then spread and become more diffuse over time. Sometimes was a cooling sensation, strangely. Had issues with urinary frequency and hesitation and pressure in the tailbone region, but that was solved with my placebo pelvic physical therapy cure back in August.

    Diagnosis-wise, I started out with 'maybe prostatitis' to 'pelvic floor pain' to 'likely entrapped nerve'. Nothing too solid - the doctors and specialists have been a bit averse to label me with anything particular. They took more of a 'let's try this and see how it works' approach with me.
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  10. Lady Phoenix

    Lady Phoenix Peer Supporter

    It's amazing how far you have come in a short time! You are going to be feeling so good after some time. Just remember that you have a healthy body!
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