Hi, I am a long time TMSer and have recovered from multiple manifestions of it, back pain, GI, allergies, most recently female vulvadynia symptoms. I believe that our minds can cure our pain and believe most illnesses are rooted in psychological pain. I am looking for feedback. My last manifestation started when I was given antibiotics for an illness. They gave me Diflucan for what I thought was a yeast infection during it so I was treated for it but the pain never went away and got much worse. Multiple Drs and a trip to the ER and nothing found. They thought IC or Vulvadynia which I knew was not it. For a long time I thought it was hormones but then I got better so I ruled that out. I found a specialist and she said it was nerve pain that was happening each time I got sick. That made me realize it was TMS and have been feeling great since I saw her and thought I conquered it. I recently developed an ear infection and pneumonia which was devastating to me as I am generally very healthy but my female symptoms had gone so something new had to start I guess. They gave me antibiotics as I was pretty sick and I was VERY worried about taking them so I got my probiotics, yogurt, Diflucan ready in case. I seriously was scared to take them for fear of a relapse. Sure enough, I started getting twinges so I took the Diflucan as a precaution but have worked myself back into pain. So stupid I know but I just need some validation. I have every bit of evidence that tells me I am just bringing this on myself. My ear infection/pneumonia have improved but female nerve pain is back. My question is that this happens every time I get sick now (which isn’t often) and I have come to fear antibiotics and that the pain will not go away (even though it’s gone away before) My problem is I know this and I know the trick my brain is playing on me. I just am having a hard time not worrying that it will be like last time. Any feedback is greatly appreciated!