Eric "Herbie" Watson
Beloved Grand Eagle
I remember a time when my fiancé was going away to Texas by herself for the first time we'd ever been apart since we met. I had knowledge of the tms just like you but for many days at night while asleep id awake with a flare up. Now I knew the emotion that was causing this and I thought if I knew the emotion then Why would I be having the pain right. Well then it hit me, Even though I knew the emotion well that was causing the pain -- I still had to fully accept without a doubt that she'd be alright without me for a while. Surly the fear I had of her getting hurt all by herself was ringing in my unconscious while I was awake but for some reason it was like while I was conscious of the unconscious happenings -- awake, they wouldn't happen but as soon as I went to sleep or even dozed off for a moment the pain was there.
So see even when were totally aware of the emotion it can still creep in while were asleep for sure. The thing I did to get it to finally stop was to once and for all acknowledge to myself that I knew in my heart that she was going to be fine if I wasn't there for her. I also had to acknowledge to myself that I'd be ok if she wasn't there for me. I knew in my heart that God wasn't going to let anything happen but I had to know it for myself and come to a place where no fear or worry could play with my thoughts again.
I'd came to far and did my homework just like you. I had to let go and trust in myself that I had no reason to worry anymore. I had to also let go and trust my own mental ability (that if I perceived fear) or hurt or loss in any form then my mind was so shaped to follow suit and give me pain cause I had already got so good at cutting the pain off with my mind. Now I had to know without a shadow of a doubt -- just like the word says -- Great is thy peace of thy children.
I knew if I could accept that peace that passes all understanding that I'd get better and I did. I had to put all of my trust in God that he wasn't going to let anything happen to the ones I loved.
The Lost Writings for the book.
God does not want you in pain. Eric Watson, Walter Olesky -- 2014
So see even when were totally aware of the emotion it can still creep in while were asleep for sure. The thing I did to get it to finally stop was to once and for all acknowledge to myself that I knew in my heart that she was going to be fine if I wasn't there for her. I also had to acknowledge to myself that I'd be ok if she wasn't there for me. I knew in my heart that God wasn't going to let anything happen but I had to know it for myself and come to a place where no fear or worry could play with my thoughts again.
I'd came to far and did my homework just like you. I had to let go and trust in myself that I had no reason to worry anymore. I had to also let go and trust my own mental ability (that if I perceived fear) or hurt or loss in any form then my mind was so shaped to follow suit and give me pain cause I had already got so good at cutting the pain off with my mind. Now I had to know without a shadow of a doubt -- just like the word says -- Great is thy peace of thy children.
I knew if I could accept that peace that passes all understanding that I'd get better and I did. I had to put all of my trust in God that he wasn't going to let anything happen to the ones I loved.
The Lost Writings for the book.
God does not want you in pain. Eric Watson, Walter Olesky -- 2014
