RozieHolland
Peer Supporter
Day 41 Self Care Day
Doing something that you enjoy and that relaxes you.
This is what relaxes me, the writing.
I become very calm and relaxed when I am writing.
I love to feel my feelings and emotions. That's my life.
When I was 3 I blocked my emotions and feelings and I became like a zombie.
At 40 I started emotional bodywork and I broke down the fort I had build around me.
I am not afraid of any emotion, I love to feel.
Day 42 The End
What have I learned about myself during this program?
That my focus was totaly wrong.
My focus was 100% at my pain, that's why the pain became worse.
When my focus is on the pain, I feel myself as a victim, a victim of the pain.
Then I play the role of the cripple, while there is nothing wrong with me.
I found the connection between body and mind.
At 40 I started bodywork that reduced the pain often.
But I always was poking into the pain.
At 50 I did mindwork, it was the other way around.
It worked also but I was searching for the combination of the two.
I have pain for 45 years now, I have done a lot, the pain didn't go away.
Then I found TMS WIKI............WOW
This is the last day of this program.
I continue because I relax during writing which reduce my pain. (it is still there)
But I also continue because I'm not sure where my pain is coming from.
I still don't know what the real connection is between my personality and the pain.
I'm going to figure this out at ease. I am going to write a lot, in many different ways.
I think after this I do Alan Gordon's TMS Recovery Program.
First I take a week off.
I have to work a lot this week (it is carnival) and next weekend I have a course.
It's a course called; The Journey of the Soul.
I thank you all for your support, posts and replies, advices, insights.
The last days I feel wonderful, I don't know the cause, but who cares.
Wish you all the best.
With love, Rozie.
Doing something that you enjoy and that relaxes you.
This is what relaxes me, the writing.
I become very calm and relaxed when I am writing.
I love to feel my feelings and emotions. That's my life.
When I was 3 I blocked my emotions and feelings and I became like a zombie.
At 40 I started emotional bodywork and I broke down the fort I had build around me.
I am not afraid of any emotion, I love to feel.
Day 42 The End
What have I learned about myself during this program?
That my focus was totaly wrong.
My focus was 100% at my pain, that's why the pain became worse.
When my focus is on the pain, I feel myself as a victim, a victim of the pain.
Then I play the role of the cripple, while there is nothing wrong with me.
I found the connection between body and mind.
At 40 I started bodywork that reduced the pain often.
But I always was poking into the pain.
At 50 I did mindwork, it was the other way around.
It worked also but I was searching for the combination of the two.
I have pain for 45 years now, I have done a lot, the pain didn't go away.
Then I found TMS WIKI............WOW
This is the last day of this program.
I continue because I relax during writing which reduce my pain. (it is still there)
But I also continue because I'm not sure where my pain is coming from.
I still don't know what the real connection is between my personality and the pain.
I'm going to figure this out at ease. I am going to write a lot, in many different ways.
I think after this I do Alan Gordon's TMS Recovery Program.
First I take a week off.
I have to work a lot this week (it is carnival) and next weekend I have a course.
It's a course called; The Journey of the Soul.
I thank you all for your support, posts and replies, advices, insights.
The last days I feel wonderful, I don't know the cause, but who cares.
Wish you all the best.
With love, Rozie.
