It's natural to come to the forum to see what's up with others and welcome new members. What's up with that. I caught myself focusing on others instead of asking for the help I need. Sure I care and want to be supportive. However, I have this long history of minimizing my issues knowing I'm a champion that has the strength and fortitude to get through anything. I'm upset just writing about this. I recognize it as repressed feelings once again. There's a lump in my throat just thinking about where I go from here. So to the big swallow I'll start with I'm so tired of being tired of the pain that comes with every movement. My torn meniscus is coming along at it's six week recovery but there's so much more, It's difficult to walk, bend, sit, stand and most of the time my arm and half of my body is numb. I'm grateful to be off of pills and therapy with great improvement since December. Most people don't know I have problems. I have folks coming to me for healing which I think has contributed to my recovery as well. I haven't stayed on track with my one hour a day commitment dedicated to my TMS progress. I've enjoyed the work but have let other excuses get in the way. As usual I think I have the solutions to impliment, hahaha. What say you? I need help. Thanks in advance.