I have spent 10 months dealing with dizziness, hyperacusis, weird "ear headaches", etc. I have had MRIs, CT scans, full vestibular testing, blood work, X-rays, etc. Nothing has been diagnosed of any significance. The only thing that was mentioned, was a "mild migraine problem" and BPPV. I have been journaling steadily, and although some rage was expressed thinking back to my childhood, nothing that I could say made a huge dent in my symptoms. I started to develop TMS 4 months postpartum with my second child. It started when my first child had to start JK and I had a newborn, and my husband had to return to working full time. I dreaded having to do everything on my own - getting the kids ready (now having two kids), making meals, driving my oldest daughter to school, nursing the baby, laundry, household chores, making dinner, etc. I am also self-employed so it was quite a challenge to do all those things within working hours plus complete my work. You see, I only became self-employed one year before I had my second child and I had dedicated so much time and hard work to gaining recognition in the field and developing a client base, I was saddened at the thought of slowing down. I knew having a child would slow much of that progress down and so, I wanted to keep going! I worked day and even night! The resentment started to build in me. My husband got to wake up in the morning, grab a coffee and go to work. I understand work is not a holiday but anyone who has young children knows that sometimes, it's better to be at work than at home. The mental stress alone is overwhelming. I was trying to cram in all the work I had to during the day while also watching my baby and getting my oldest to school. I hired a nanny to stay 4-5 hours a day, which I felt tremendously guilty about (wasn't this time meant for bonding with the baby???) When I got sick with vertigo, my husband could only stay home a week with me and when he went back to work, I was so fear stricken by the thought of staying home alone with my children. I was dizzy and didn't feel safe in three-dimensional space and the thought of also caring for children was terrifying. BUT he had his job and he couldn't give it up! And, that's what he does, and that's his dream!!! I have been dizzy for 10 months and my husband's health is the same, his life is the same. Nothing changes for him. He was laid off from his job and stayed home for 3 months with me. My symptoms started getting a little better as I would have help in the mornings with the children and the guilt was gone because we no longer needed the nanny. I also had more time to focus on my business. He even got his mortgage agent license so that he could join in with what I do. Then, further resentment started to build. He hadn't a hope in hell of retaining new clients, he wasn't motivated and there wasn't money coming in. I told him he had to go back to work but asked him if he could get a more reasonable job, one where the burden of morning and afternoon routine wouldn't be all on my plate. He wouldn't compromise and told me that's what he does and he's not going to "give up his dream"... He went back to work 1 week ago and I am already feeling TMS full swing. The responsibility of the children, making dinner and the overwhelming feeling of my work falling behind makes me want to strangle him! To top it off, his car broke down and he has been driving my car... leaving me stranded at home day in and day out for the last week. So, I started thinking, "why would anyone be mad at their husband for going to work or borrowing their car?"... the truth is I don't want to be with him! The resentment of him NEVER changing and me making all the changes have created strong RAGE in me! I can't stand it! And then, he turns it around on me, as if I am the selfish one! More RAGE!!!! I think I want out of my marriage!!