Hi all, new to this forum, but definitely not to tms. I believe I have suffered from it since I was a young child. Almost ten years ago I saw a tms specialist in Seattle, WA that said he was sure I had it, especially since no structural problems were ever found. Back then I actually did heal my severe neck and back pain through Sarno's work which saved my life, although I don't believe I healed myself completely since I have had pain in other places since, as well as anxiety and depression...but I was content to not have the severe pain anymore. Fast forward to now, I have pretty much hit rock bottom again, at a still young age of 30. Many tragedies have happened to me in the past five years; my mom committed suicide and I found her, many job losses, physical and emotional abuse by my ex husband, four major surgeries, and I lost my child last April. My pain has come back with a vengeance, If I listed all of my pains it would fill up a whole page. I would say right now my worst is facial pain (suffered from bell's palsy years ago, chronic pain and seizures in my face since) and also lower back and tailbone pain. I worry a lot about my posture and how it affects my body. I know that Sarno has stated that posture does not cause pain and our bodies are strong, but it is still hard for me to not give into the conditioning. My tailbone pain really started happening after months of sitting on the floor, I gave up furniture because anything soft hurt my lower back. For awhile that helped my lower back, but I always sat right on my tailbone, leaning back against the wall, while holding my knees. One day a friend saw me do this and said, wow your butt must hurt from that position. I never had thought about it and long behold, a week or so later my tailbone started hurting anytime I sat like that, and now it hurts all the time. That was the most comfortable position for me to sit in and now I'm afraid to sit anywhere. How do we get better when it seems as if the whole world is telling us almost everything we do is wrong and will cause pain? It's draining. Can we really sit, stand, walk, etc.. how we want ... and know that our bodies will be strong enough for it?