I am starting Dr. David Schecter's Mind Body Workbook on January 1. I started a 30-day push challenge program (unrelated to TMS) because I have been having a hard-time getting started on my mindbody work and have felt very stuck in my ability to make other positive changes in my life, as well. About a year and half ago I worked through about 3 weeks of the tmswiki program, became pain-free, but did not continue the program or do my mindbody work. I was pain-free for about 3 months and then gradually the pain started coming back. It has never been as bad as it was originally, so I have just been living with it for over a year. I have not been able to get back to doing the necessary work to be pain-free. During this 30-day push challenge, we wrote 10 goals for the year and through the process had to come up with one main goal (the push goal), that will make at least 3 or 4 of the other goals possible. My push goal is to be pain-free. That is what I needed to re-start my mindbody work. I also discovered why I could not get myself back to doing the mindbody work to be pain-free. I discovered two things. #1 That if I become pain-free I will be incredibly powerful. I have a lot of gifts and am very blessed. I discovered "the sky is the limit" for me. This is scary when you're me. #2 I also discovered that if I am pain-free I will probably want/need to make some changes in my life that I don't know if I am scared to make. So now, I am willing to feel the fear and do it anyway. I am on day #11 of the 30-day push challenge, and today I had to come up with ways to ensure the success of doing my daily mindbody work. So, I knew I needed accountability. That is why I am here. Each day after I do my mindbody workbook and read a chapter from one of the many good books on mbs (as Schecter suggests), I am going to come to this support group forum and post that I did my work, and write a little about anything I learned. So I thank you all in advance, especially tmswiki for giving me a forum to use for accountability and a place where every one understands the nature of what I am working on. Oh, and by the way, my diagnosis, which I was give about 14 years ago is fibromyalgia. I know it is just a severe for of mind body symptoms, beyond a shadow of a doubt.