I just read Enrique's success story as part of my Day 16 work in the Structured Educational Program. Reading these success stories gives me alot of hope. I appreciated Enrique's approach. He writes: "I was willing to do whatever it takes to get better. I was 'open-minded.'" I, too, am motivated by desperation, and am trying to keep my "rational," skeptical thinking on mute, and just keep an open mind. I know there are lots of things I dont understand -- about my body and about the world in general. And I am willing to take suggestions from people who have been through this and come out the other side. For the past few months, I have been afraid to work out strenuously at the gym, because of fear about my back. I havent been running as I like to do, or lifting weights. The gym is a place where I go to feel good, get healthy, and take care of myself. It has been really frustrating that my back pain has taken this away from me. Well, in the last few weeks, I have been following Dr. Sarno's advice to resume normal activity without fear! I have been increasing weights -- with no adverse effects -- and think I am ready to try jogging on the treadmill. I am headed to the gym this afternoon to meet a friend -- and I'm going to match him pound for pound -- as I always used to do. I refuse to let TMS control what I do with my time and how I enjoy myself! The pain is still there -- for now -- but I'm going to start living my life the way I want to again!