For around 2 weeks I was mostly feeling ok considering pain. My stomach was calm (no nausea), my headaches weren't so bad, some weird knee pain coming and going nothing too bad but yet I had problems with depression and couple of emotional outbursts. Lots of meditation and yoga were helping, but I wasn't consistent with it. Last thursday I found out my family member was not doing good. That night I feel asleep feeling sick and after an hour I woke up in an horrible anxiety/panic attack and my mouth started to get numb. On friday I urgently had to take her to the ER and they left her in the hospital in the end. She's going to be fine but this is not the first time I'm going through something similar with her. Since then I have daily nausea and anxiety attacks in measure I never had before. My anxiety is the worst in the evening, especially when I try to relax with some movies. This has happened twice now. Eventually I calm down and fell asleep. I decided that I'm going to see a psychologist, I can't deal with this alone anymore it's just too much. It affects my work ability a lot. I'm aware that this event was just a trigger and that it would probably happen eventually, but yet I'm so lost in all of this that I can't think straight right now. I have a feeling like I'm running in circles with this TMS and symptoms are just changing and will never go away. A week ago I was feeling fine and I'm afraid I won't find myself in this state again.