North Star
Beloved Grand Eagle
Hey everyone! We've been in the sunny south for over a month now and I finally feel like I'm getting back into a routine. It's been a rough month, TMS wise but I have to remind myself of a few victories too.
First, I had a headache coming on. That has been my longest and most persistent TMS symptom. Headaches that last for weeks. On day 2 of the headache, I gave myself a good talking to…complete with a few swear words. Within an hour, the headache was GONE. No ibuprofen. No neck rub. Just a talking to.
I've dealt with other TMS symptoms successfully but this is the first time I chased off a headache.
The other event came just the other day. I have a small scar from an abscess that had to be cut into a few years ago…it was nasty stuff. (And most certainly symbolic of some seriously repressed rage.) When I looked at the scar, I was very happy to see it looking great. Another TMS thing for me is scar tissue just continues cranking out. (Over active nervous system much?)
The next morning, I woke up and would believe that damn scar…totally out of the blue…was infected and nasty looking.
And then I was PISSED.
First time in two years - I've never had it do this before.
I threw some antibiotic ointment on it and refused to hover over it in fear of another doctor's visit. I had an honest talk with myself and my hubby about some things that had angered me just that day.
I gave it minor attention with ointment and the next day…it's mostly gone.
A wise person once said that sometimes, "The only way out is through," and I believe I have gotten through some of my darker TMS hours from these past few months.
And as I mentioned on Blake's thread about his victory, I paused the other night, before bedtime, and realized I just felt GRATEFUL. Not for anything in particular…just a pure, genuine gratitude. It was pretty awesome.
First, I had a headache coming on. That has been my longest and most persistent TMS symptom. Headaches that last for weeks. On day 2 of the headache, I gave myself a good talking to…complete with a few swear words. Within an hour, the headache was GONE. No ibuprofen. No neck rub. Just a talking to.
I've dealt with other TMS symptoms successfully but this is the first time I chased off a headache.
The other event came just the other day. I have a small scar from an abscess that had to be cut into a few years ago…it was nasty stuff. (And most certainly symbolic of some seriously repressed rage.) When I looked at the scar, I was very happy to see it looking great. Another TMS thing for me is scar tissue just continues cranking out. (Over active nervous system much?)
The next morning, I woke up and would believe that damn scar…totally out of the blue…was infected and nasty looking.
And then I was PISSED. First time in two years - I've never had it do this before. I threw some antibiotic ointment on it and refused to hover over it in fear of another doctor's visit. I had an honest talk with myself and my hubby about some things that had angered me just that day.
I gave it minor attention with ointment and the next day…it's mostly gone.
A wise person once said that sometimes, "The only way out is through," and I believe I have gotten through some of my darker TMS hours from these past few months.
And as I mentioned on Blake's thread about his victory, I paused the other night, before bedtime, and realized I just felt GRATEFUL. Not for anything in particular…just a pure, genuine gratitude. It was pretty awesome.
