I honestly haven't really told anyone about my TMS diagnosis. My therapist probably knows the most about the diagnosis and the work I am doing because she was trained with Alan Gordon. My immediate family and partner know bits and pieces about the diagnosis and work I am doing to try to get myself out of pain. I honestly just never want to bring it up because it is so hard to describe and I think some part of me believes that people don't really care. I mean, friends will ask how my pain journey is going and I usually just say okay because I don't want to bombard them with everything TMS related that they would need to learn to understand what I am really going through. I sent my partner and my parents an article from Day 2 of this program that I really thought was helpful but there was not much discussion afterwards. I just don't want to come across as this sad girl that has pain that makes no sense. I don't want to be vulnerable about my pain and I don't want to be treated with pity. My partner really doesn't know too much about it even though we live together and I do wish that he would ask more questions about how and why I am doing the educational program for TMS. I don't want my friendships to be based off of this, I want them to be based on fun, regular things. However, I can see how this is super isolating and have experienced feeling extreme loneliness in the last couple of years. I almost feel like I have to put on a front when I am with friends or family, but then also feel a gap in our relationship because we don't discuss TMS, which is a huge part of my life.