Hello all. It was nine years ago that I first began struggling with back pain. Initially, a round of physical therapy "cured" the pain. However, my relief was short-lived. At the time I was in graduate school and in a particularly stressful environment. Fast forward another five years and I was still struggling with the back pain. I had taken two medical leaves from school and even left the country to seek out alternatives with eastern medicine. Like many others, when I was first introduced to Sarno and TMS, I was skeptical and dismissive. Eventually, I was became desperate enough to try anything and gave the TMS diagnosis a fair shake. It took a few weeks, but I moved past the back pain and along the way, became mentally healthier. Unfortunately, I never looked back. Six months ago I began to experience symptoms of plantar fasciitis. In the year leading up to the plantar fasciitis, I had struggled with some foot issues and had reluctantly starting wearing orthotics. When the heel pain started and I was diagnosed with plantar fasciitis, it really made sense to me. My feet had gotten weak from wearing clunky dress shoes in my new professional work life, I moved into the city and was hardly barefoot, and orthotics are known to weaken the feet. Got it. However, once the pain started, I became obsessed with getting better. I read everything I could on foot mobility, improving motor control, strengthening the foot, strengthening and mobilizes the tissues and muscles that would affect the foot like the hip. But still, the pain was not getting better. In fact, it was actually getting worse. A couple of weeks ago I found myself feeling unusually depressed. I hope this makes sense: a woman that I wasn't interested in dating, but who I thought was very interested in dating me, turned out to not be interested in dating me, after all. The rejection from this woman who I had already mentally rejected, really made me feel awful. It was then that I noticed that the foot pain had in fact intensified tremendously and I was having symptoms that no longer fit the plantar fasciitis diagnosis. I also knew that the level of depression I was feeling, was not something that I could sustain. So here I am, back again. In some ways I feel very comfortable to be back in the Structured Educational Program. I know I haven't been taking care of myself mentally and I know I've fallen back into mental patterns and self-talk that is harmful to myself. I suppose any doubts that I still have about the TMS diagnosis stem from all of the mental conditioning I have done in the last six months that absolutely convinced me that I had plantar fasciitis. Additionally, unlike with the back pain, which lasted five years and in which I exhausted all of the options that I could, this pain has only been around for six months. I do have some lingering doubts about the TMS diagnosis this time around, but I'm hopeful that they will pass. I found a few threads in the forums specifically discussing plantar fasciitis and other foot pain; those posts really helped. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read all of this! Last time around, the support I got from this community was critical to my success with the program and with becoming pain free.