Hi everyone, this is my first post here and I thought I'd introduce myself. I'll try to keep this as short as I can. I'm a professional esports player and in September 2018 I developed some severe pain in my right thumb one evening. Before my RSI I played around 4-6 hours a day. I play on a controller and my right thumb is certainly my most active body part when gaming. From that day onwards I've been plagued with constant sharp and dull pains in every area of my thumb, and even into my palm and the base of my fingers. The pain is in the back of my thumb 80% of the time but moves about throughout the weeks. I've had an x-ray and an ultrasound which were both healthy, and I have an MRI coming up soon. The hand therapists I've seen can't figure out what is wrong, but I've tried all of their suggestions: heat packs, cold packs, stretches, braces and I haven't played in over 3 months. There hasn't been much improvement. I discovered TMS online and read The Mindbody Prescription shortly after. The book was pretty convincing and revolutionary, I never thought that my pain could be psychogenic. Whilst logically I'm very certain it's TMS I'm sure that unconsciously I don't fully believe it yet. I started the TMS Recovery program over a week ago and have read a lot of information on it as well as a lot of different success stories. It's still early days yet so we'll see where I'm at in the future, but I'm definitely one to worry about absolutely everything, so getting over the fear and frustration of TMS is a major factor for me. Whenever the pain comes up I keep telling myself "your thumb is healthy, the pain is in your mind" but I always get worried when it comes, especially if it's worse than usual. Journaling has been useful in discovering all my past and present emotions, including those that led up to my RSI, but since it's only been a week I haven't seen any improvement yet. I've started playing again to get rid of the fear of my pain when using it and the pain definitely increases when I do this. I've also had IBS for four years and as a result my diet is very restricted, but only after reading about TMS and how IBS can be that, I've wondered whether or not that's the case for me. One symptom at a time though. For those fellow RSI strugglers out there, what did you do to overcome this pain, especially when it comes to overcoming the fear and frustration? They say if you keep doing certain activities with RSI for too long then the pain can become permanent, but after reading plenty of success stories of people who've had RSI for years fully recover, it gives me hope, but that's if what I have is actually TMS. Thanks for reading.