So I know the driving factor of TMS is our built up repressed rage. Learning about TMS and starting to learn to think emotionally more than physically, is slowly starting to work for me. Last night I had a bit of anxiety wash over me and the pain set in again, I am starting to realise I do have alot of stress, frustration and anger built up inside of me. but I have no idea what to do with those feelings! For example, after the flare up of pain last night, I woke up feeling a little anxious. I mentioned to my girlfriend I was starting to feel a little stressed out about everything and she was surprised because I have never mentioned or talked about being stressed/anxious. Once I started to talk about it, I just wanted to cry, I don't really know why. I held it in and started feeling better. Not long after, I got a ticket for doing an illegal u-turn. The officer pulled me up to give me a ticket and I just felt so angry, I was shaking with frustration and anger, just the thought of adding another stress to the list, I felt like yelling and just losing it...but again, I didn't...I sucked it up, was very polite and drove away, with a few swear words and a punch to the steering wheel. I'm now catching myself consciously repressing these emotions. Just a little confused as what to do with them, should I be journalling as soon as I can after it happens...should I just let it out??? I almost feel like I need to invest in a punching bag and just unleash :S I don't know whether I want to yell or cry and whenever I start to feel ok, the pain comes back, the fear sets in and it continues.