gschueck
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Hi!
I've had some periodic back pain episodes and always it was related to significant emotional/traumatic events. After my mother's death five years ago, the back pain became chronic. In the past 6 months, I resolved myself to working it out and spent $$$ on chiropractic, rolfing and various remedies. I had a morning routine and an evening routine. Yoga, balls, sticks, tens unit, laser therapy, orthotic shoes, posture books, leg pillows, dvds, etc. Then in the past 6 months, it moved into my neck and that's when it became unbearable. The harder I worked the worse it got. I suspected that it was related to my emotions. I knew it was chronic muscle tension and I had no tools left but conventional medicine and I knew there was nothing there for me. I told my chiropractor a few weeks ago that I was becoming a cripple. I'd had a dream that my muscles were going to snap my bones. This body was hitting the eject button in a really mean way.
She gave me Sarno's book, healing your back pain. I didn't need convincing that it was emotional as I've always suspected. In 3 days, I was 50% better. Better than I had been in years! Only last night it decided to move into my knee and I could hardly walk. This time I laughed at it, knowing the origin and admiring the power of the mind.
I am currently in a life transition going from a corporate job to being self employed so my hope is that I am able to do this on my own. I don't have a budget for therapy and I'm not going to lie, I don't relish the idea of unpacking my bags in front of anyone. I doubt I'm the only one on here who has felt this way considering that we don't like to look in our bags... or even know we have them. I had no idea what it meant to repress an emotion. After a couple weeks of studying, I've learned that I am a professional at it. I also worry that I don't have bags, I have train cars.....
I am thankful this understanding of the pain. Thankful for the gift to know the power of the mind.
This is where I am on day one.
I've had some periodic back pain episodes and always it was related to significant emotional/traumatic events. After my mother's death five years ago, the back pain became chronic. In the past 6 months, I resolved myself to working it out and spent $$$ on chiropractic, rolfing and various remedies. I had a morning routine and an evening routine. Yoga, balls, sticks, tens unit, laser therapy, orthotic shoes, posture books, leg pillows, dvds, etc. Then in the past 6 months, it moved into my neck and that's when it became unbearable. The harder I worked the worse it got. I suspected that it was related to my emotions. I knew it was chronic muscle tension and I had no tools left but conventional medicine and I knew there was nothing there for me. I told my chiropractor a few weeks ago that I was becoming a cripple. I'd had a dream that my muscles were going to snap my bones. This body was hitting the eject button in a really mean way.
She gave me Sarno's book, healing your back pain. I didn't need convincing that it was emotional as I've always suspected. In 3 days, I was 50% better. Better than I had been in years! Only last night it decided to move into my knee and I could hardly walk. This time I laughed at it, knowing the origin and admiring the power of the mind.
I am currently in a life transition going from a corporate job to being self employed so my hope is that I am able to do this on my own. I don't have a budget for therapy and I'm not going to lie, I don't relish the idea of unpacking my bags in front of anyone. I doubt I'm the only one on here who has felt this way considering that we don't like to look in our bags... or even know we have them. I had no idea what it meant to repress an emotion. After a couple weeks of studying, I've learned that I am a professional at it. I also worry that I don't have bags, I have train cars.....
I am thankful this understanding of the pain. Thankful for the gift to know the power of the mind.
This is where I am on day one.
