Day 1 Ready to go again

This will be my second go at SEP after the first time I did it last year, which helped me walk again after being immobile/stuck on mobility aids for a year and a half due to pain. I haven't used mobility aids since and continue to walk further and further. Despite still getting some leg pain, I no longer feel afraid of it and can easily direct my thinking to psychological.

However, recently my back pain has been getting really bad, as well as symptoms of fatigue and allergic rhinitis. I've been feeling so frustrated with my pain, stressing over how to manage my energy levels and constantly spraying different things up my nose in a desperate attempt to make it all stop.

But it's finally, properly, sunk in... I've been bamboozled by TMS once again.

Following a structured plan helps me a lot so I'm ready to give this another go. My mind already feels refreshed after day 1, and I feel even more confident this time around because I know that I'M already living proof that this works.

I'm ready to go. I'm ready to be pain and symptom free!

 

You got this, eluna! It sounds like CLASSIC symptom imperative. Our brains are so good at coming up with distractions - it knows leg pain isn't working anymore!

I wanted to comment because I'm also back for round 2, and just one day behind you in the program. I started today. I had a looooooong list of 'persistent physical symptoms' (what the NHS likes to call it, here in the UK) which had me housebound and at times bedbound in 2023-24. I made a slow but steady recovery after learning about TMS/mindbody stuff and by last summer I was working part-time, socialising again, really getting life back. But then life got lifey and after significant stress, I had a relapse. You'd think I'd have known what to do and could have made it short-lived. But no, I was straight back into FEAR and DOUBT all those things, and before I know it, I've lost six months again.

Just recently I've read all the books, watched a lot of the YouTube channels again... And I'm convinced about what this is again. But I haven't been able to get recovery off the ground. I realised that, like you, a structured program is what I need. I need to devote real time to this process each day for a while, and this is a great way to do it. I'd naively thought that having recovered once, once I had belief again then poof, I'd be all better. Nope! And I realise that's because there are still doubts around the edges. I know this program will help chip away at those.

Anyway, apologies for spamming your thread with my own story. I noticed that we're here for the same reason and wanted to give you a cheer! We got this!