That's it in a nutshell!
Source had been trying to show me that this "voice" that kept telling me I was sick and needed to fix something is a LIAR!!! It kept me feeling alone and abandoned. This is a very personal experience of connection beyond doubt and I was trying to make it happen myself. Rather than begging and praying for healing, I continue to ask this power to walk with me and show me what I need to see.
Now, every time I stand up, if there is pain, etc., I just call any of the old familiar thoughts I instantly have about it a LIAR!