I actually went to the gym yesterday. It was hard but I really did show no fear. I did 20 min on the eliptical and 20 minutes on my most feared piece of equipment... The bike. Since my neck "went out on me" while biking. I had prepared myself that my neck may get irritated doing it, but that I wasn't going to care how I felt... Just that I did it and wasn't afraid to do it. I even did my abs and lower back! No pain... Besides the pain in my abs laughing today from DOMS.. Lol. I'm not gonna compare that I felt good, since I know that it can come back... But I am trying to think more psychologically and redirecting any thoughts that I have when they come. My mind is so tired. Really, today my main thing is... I want to be anxious about something.. It's like my mind won't give itself a break. It's been really hard today to redirect myself from feeling anxiety since it seems to be the way that it's been for the past few months. I'm always on red alert about something and it's hard mentally to recognize this and stop those emotions. I'm finding that it doesn't matter what it's about... But me realizing what's going on and trying to turn down that volume is helping!