Hi: I've read two of Dr. Sarno's books and they really resonate with me. I've suffered with back pain (my SI joint was out of alignment for 8 years) for over 10 years, After I had my SI joint "put back in" - I should have been fine. But I'm not. I've tried everything - probably twice. I know that this is the program for me, I also know when it started. It was the day we were told my husband had Prostate cancer. My husband has had a series of health issues throughout our 20 years together. I'm the "cheerleader" and handle most everything in our lives. We own our own business, our finances are terrible, and I am the one who must trouble shoot all of this. I know where my anger comes from. Needless to say, I've figured this out. I'm on loads of pain medication which I run through too fast on a regular basis. Now I want off of it, I want my life back. I love the outdoors, love to beach comb, walk with my dog, swim, anything that is athletic. I used to run, but after my "back went out" I stopped. The problem is my husband's cancer (I am afraid) is advancing. So where do I start? I've been in fear all day and crying because I don't want to lose him, or him to lose any of his life. He's a musician that means the world to him. I want to start the 10 day program. I work with a therapist already for my anxiety disorder, and read her the riot act the other day. Instead of getting better, I'm getting better at hiding my anxiety. I think we're on the same page, and with or without her, I WILL conquer this and regain my life. Question: Should I forge ahead? We see my husband's oncologist on Tuesday. I'm scared and this damn fear is holding me back from everything. I'm out of my pain meds and won't exercise yet. I'm too fearful. Thanks for any words of wisdom.