For the last month or so, I’ve been experiencing some really intense persistent psychological symptoms that I’ve identified as TMS. I’ve been experiencing intense depression, anxiety, and OCD. After battling depression and anxiety for a while, it turned into obsessive compulsive thoughts. I won’t be able to stop thinking about something, or I feel anhedonia, a total lack of pleasure and feeling disconnected from everything I do. It’s hard to explain but when it happens it feels like I’m going insane sometimes. I use to get physical symptoms all the time such as back pain and migraines, but I’ve learned to ignore them pretty well at this point so they’ve mostly gone away. But these psychological symptoms really take my TMS struggle to a whole new level. Because a it’s in my mind, it’s much harder to repudiate the symptoms and disconnect from them. It’s not like back pain where I can point to where it is. It is extremely difficult to disidentify with depression and anxiety and OCD. Unlike the physical symptoms, these psych symptoms legitimately scare the shit out of me - which I know is one of the reasons they won’t go away. But It really feels like I’m being screwed with internally. I’m finding myself constantly analyzing the shit out of everything. For example, if I’m watching a movie or playing a video game I’m constantly wondering to myself “Am I actually enjoying this? Is this pleasurable?” It gets to the point where my thoughts get so carried away they become overwhelming, which usually leads to a vicious cycle of more depression and anxiety AND obsessive thinking all at once. I’ve used Alan Gordon’s pain recovery techniques to temporarily stop these symptoms the same way I did with my back pain, but it is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT and the relief is very short lived. Usually, The symptom imperative usually kicks in and the psychological symptoms will turn back into migraines. If I fight those long enough, they simply morph back into depression or anxiety or some obsessive thinking pattern. I can’t stress enough that no matter what I try - feeling my emotions, journaling, doing the pain recovery program, these symptoms are like an unstoppable force - they simply do not want to piss off. And it feels absolutely exhausting to fight this all day - use every technique I have at my disposal , just for momentary relief. I might get to the point where the symptoms are gone or I havn’t noticed them in a couple hours and I think “I’m finally free of this!” Only to be sucked back into a cycle of obsessive thinking once more. I absolutely hate the idea of going on medication, especially since I know that this is all TMS, but I’m simply not equipped to manage these symptoms on my own. For whatever reason, they just don’t want to go away. Any suggestions?