Oh dear. I am really struggling. I am still obsessed with my symptoms and just can´t seem to turn off the obsession. I have now read Steve Ozanichs book which was extremely enlightening. I had a break from the recovery program but know I must continue and reach out for support from all of you. I also realised that I have been suffering from TMS for all of my life in one form or another. I have alot of pent up emotions dating back to my childhood and am seperated from my husband (although living in the same house) so alot of repressed emotions. I´ve never told anyone but I suffered from bulimia when I was in my early 20s. After reading Steve´s book I realise this was just another outlet for TMS. Back to present... I persevere with sport....hiking, gym, running. I just get out and do it. My major pain areas are in the lower back /sacro iliac and the entire neck shoulders head. I feel like the whole of my left side is weaker and therefore feels twisted. Although i have been journalling on and off for the last 3 months now and have accepted the TMS diagnosis my unconscious mind has its claws buried deep and keeps hitting me with some extreme symptoms. I´ve tried to find a tms therapist here in Germany but there just isn´t any so I need to persevere by myself. Although I have the strength and determination it feels like a rollercoaster ride and at the moment my whole chest,neck and head area is suffering "oxygen deprivation" and feels like a block of cement. My digestion is playing up, my insomnia extreme. How can it be that after 3 months I´m still not making progress?