I think the hardest part of recovering from TMS for me is learning how to be compassionate with myself. As bad as pain, obsession, anxiety are I think the most challenging thing is to just be kind to myself. I have noticed lately that when I am feeling physically good I am usually feeling connected emotionally--present in my body, in the moment, with the people around me. When I am in pain or anxious I usually am feeling disconnected, fearful, alone (even if other people are with me). Today I noticed the emotions first and then watched as they kind of morphed into low-grade pain. (Usually I feel the physical pain first and then try to think psychological and figure out where it is coming from). I'm probably fighting the full experience of the emotions and so the pain is coming on a little, but it's just there and I'm not really afraid of it or even annoyed by it, just kind of watching it. I realize I am pretty mean to myself a lot of the time and that I torture myself with lots of fearful thoughts and treat myself in ways I would never treat another person. I guess this is the "inner bully"? Anyway, I feel like at least now I am realizing how much I do this and so it's shifting a little in a positive direction.