Sorry about the jumbled mess of my posting. I have been thinking about posting for a month or so but haven't gotten around to organizing my thoughts so here it is. Quick history of my TMS: You can see the full story in my first posting. 2014 – Had 3 concussions but then started getting head tingling and lip tingling that I thought was from the concussions but I now discovered to be TMS 2016 – left work 1 day and had foot tingling; had all the MRIs and said it was from back. Did therapy and nothing changed. Occasionally had numbness tingling in saddle area and thought it was more serious (now think that was from the power of suggestion when they warned me about dangers). Later that year had nerve tests and diagnosed with polyneuropathy. I continued to have the head tingling. Also started having occasional migraines and gastro problems for the entire summer. The gastro problems were blamed on hiatal hernia at first but then the doctor suggested anxiety and they disappeared the next day. 2017 – both head and numb/tingling feet continued. Eventually go rid of the feet with PT. The therapist said it was from my back and that the symptoms should move up to there. Right before it got better I had all kinds of tingling/buzzing in my butt and lower back. It then went away, but came back when I did an exercise for the back. I then “connected it to the back” and started having hip and butt pains too. 2018 – head tingling almost completed vanished once I decided to just ignore it. My leg and hip, butt pain continued to bother and I visited many doctors who had no answers. I also started having worse reactions with certain physical movements like lifting things. Eventually when reaching really far to clean a large soaking tub, my feet intensified and I started having back pains in the middle of the back, just under the shoulder blades. I also started having some popping. A couple weeks later I lifted some items and my feet got super painful and intense with electric shocks. I started having nerve pains in my butt and all over my back as well. I went to a doctor and immediately he suggested surgery which scared me. At this point I really became fearful and started avoiding all kinds of movement. I even had caudal cortisone shot. At this time the head tingling I had the previous year returned. I went to a neurologist and had a nerve test and he said pinched nerve. Eventually I went to 2 other doctors. One gave me back exercises to do but later and after doing a nerve test thought they didn’t think it was my back and said he thought it was anxiety. On the day of the nerve test my ankles swelled to the size of tennis balls. Another doctor also confirmed he thought there was nothing wrong with my back. Right around this time I discovered the concept of TMS. It still took me awhile to accept it. I started back into things by trying to shoot hoops and shovel snow. After shoveling snow my back hurt the next morning but was okay the second morning. That second day I went to shoot hoops and after I had crazy cold tingles all over my feet, legs, back, face, and arms. I began to get worried and tried the old back exercises and I got a bad reaction of tingling up my calves. After that certain movements would cause tingling in my calves which then lasted for months. I also started waking up with pain in my lower back. The waking up with back pain has been weird because I sometimes go a couple weeks with and then a couple weeks without. I even stayed up all night and had no pain, but if I fall asleep for even an hour I wake up with pain. Right before the back pain from the bed I was getting worried because my mattress was really old and I was afraid it didn’t offer enough support. Before this I had never woken up with back pain. So where I am now. I have since lifted the things that originally made everything worse. I have started playing basketball again for the first time in five years. I started biking again too. I have had pains move all over my body including my neck, my arms, and my chest; however, the feet persist. I had two bad instances: once with my hip and once with my knee where I could barely walk. I went to doctors and they said no injury and about a week later both disappeared. Lately I have had a return of terrible back pains in the middle of my back, which I haven’t had in months. I also get incredible buzzing (like a phone) in my lower back and butt sometimes. I don’t believe my back is injured and try to laugh it off or forget about it. I still wake up with occasional back pain. I also have had intense increase in symptoms and thought perhaps an extinction burst but they have never left. Even in the last couple days I have had pain move all around my back, and butt. However, as much as I ignore it, it seems to only get worse. Sometimes it frustrates me because it makes it harder for me when I have my kid and I don’t feel like I am the parent I could be if I didn’t have this. Questions: Why did my symptoms go so haywire in 2018 when they were steady for years? Usually the days after I have the best mental days I have the worst mental days filled with doubt and the worry that I won’t ever get past this. Is that normal? If I have gone through the symptom imperative, why has everything increased and returned to places it hasn’t been in months? Now certain movements that were fine trigger the back pain. I know it can’t be anything structural so why does this happen? Is being aware of the pain bad? Sometimes I find it hard to ignore but I try not to think any more than just being aware that it is there What else do I need to be doing or is there something I am not doing? I have tried counseling therapy and reached out to Steve O and done some consults. Sometimes I think I might be taking in too much or making things more complicated with all the psych stuff. Is there a simple concept I should be focused on? One thing I know that is making me angry is how all this pain is making things difficult. Is anger about TMS something that perpetuates it? Sarno says to talk to it with disdain so I am a little confused. I have done a bunch of psychologically digging (even gone to therapy) but I wonder if looking into things too much keeps the focus on TMS and wondering if I should step back my efforts there. I try to do exercises and running but my legs don’t work properly and the more I try the more I get weird nerve pain and tightness. Should I still try? Do things usually get a lot worse as you discover TMS and try working through things? I feel like my symptoms weren’t nearly as bad at the beginning of things getting a lot worse. Dr. Segal is near where I live. Would it be a good idea to visit her?