Oh Jeez - I feel a bit busted. I too have gone on that Phoenix Rising Forum. I understand the come-from of CFS folk being frustrated with people throwing the emotional or cognitive diagnosis at them, which can feel like people not understanding the physical intensity of the life-threatening collapse one is going through, because I’ve been going through it, at times, for several decades. I’ve found that CFS (and FMS) are a much more difficult and challenging journey than just healing back pain (and Sarno work did a good job for me on that and other things).
Be compassionate, fellow peers. I know from my experience of what they call CFS etc. that no one can imagine the experience if you haven’t actually lived it. The level of exhaustion and weakness can be too great for the application of any process, knowledge therapy, etc. Now, I’ve been an advocate of the Sarno approach for many years. But even on the TMS Forum I never found one post of someone who had successfully applied it to the experience of “CFS.” There are plenty of people who use the words CFS to describe a phase of months or a few years. But mine has been coming and going 35 years, during which I have been extremely aware of my core rage, my thoughts, my doorways to witness consciousness and much more — I teach this stuff for a living and have had many many breakthroughs. But CFS is a buzzzard. It comes and goes without much correlation with whether I do Sarno work or Gupta work or the many other related practices I know. Recently it has come again:
Earlier this year I nearly died of pneumonia. It was dramatic — the worst case they had ever seen at the ER. And I hadn’t been in the cold or had a cold or flu or anything. Then struggling to breathe, unable to even pick up a glass of water or go to the bathroom for weeks. And I am single - I had friends taking care of me 24/7 for weeks in order to survive. That was difficult — I do have good friends, but I feel I have spent every bit of credit ;-) Then it took 5 rounds of antibiotics to get me well, between one thing and another, including a relapse. This was the sickest I have been in my life, including the “C” diagnosis years ago.
Then in response to the antibiotics I got really really bad after-effects. And I’m dealing with clearing those. I won’t go into physical details here, but certain “supplements” are actually working to rebuild my system. And I have a really good straight/alternate doctor who has done blood tests and is using a combo of meds and what are here rather caustically and disdainfully called “supplements” (they are usually natural agents from Goddess’s good earth) to get myself back from what is, basically, yet another experience of pain throughout my whole body, and such fatigue that I only have a few active hours a day.
My reaction to all this pain and exhaustion clearly perpetuates the spin of symptoms. But it isn’t the whole thing. The whole thing is a mystery to me. I know if I weren’t experiencing what I am experiencing — say my whole buy-in to Sarno had just been my back and tooth miracles (see the other TMS forum) — I would just feel scornful and superior to those who don’t “realize” that they are just going through another manifestation of TMS.
Compassion and humility requested from all of us to all of us. We don’t know it all and we don’t know what we don’t know...
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