I am finishing up Day 26 of the SEProgram, and the question to ponder was "When was the last time you have spoken with your parents?"
Normally I speak with my parents weekly, but just about "surface stuff". I grew up in a loving home where my parents always seemed to get along and rarely do I remember them arguing. They raised my siblings and I in a moderately strict environment - church multiple times a week, required us to be "good" all the time, restricted us from some activities as we were younger (no going to the movies and no eating out on Sundays); but we never questioned this approach because it was all we knew at the time. With that said, I believe this may have been enraging to my inner child and I may have developed repressed anger towards them (even though I do not feel angry towards them!). Later in my teenage years, I wanted to rebel but only did on a few occasions - again probably adding to my repressed resentment towards my parents.
Also my parents, especially my mom, were very stoic. The only time I remember my parents showing emotions was when they were mad at my siblings or me for "acting bad". I cannot remember through out any of my childhood and even now opening up and being emotional with my parents. I almost had the feeling of, "Hey, you have to be tough and not show people your emotions. You must keep everything close to the vest." Thinking back, I again just thought this was how we were supposed to act but am starting to resentment my parents for leading me into a "stoic state".
No relief from the TMS pain symptoms, but I can feel myself gaining some psychological ground i.e. thinking pyscho vs. physical.
Normally I speak with my parents weekly, but just about "surface stuff". I grew up in a loving home where my parents always seemed to get along and rarely do I remember them arguing. They raised my siblings and I in a moderately strict environment - church multiple times a week, required us to be "good" all the time, restricted us from some activities as we were younger (no going to the movies and no eating out on Sundays); but we never questioned this approach because it was all we knew at the time. With that said, I believe this may have been enraging to my inner child and I may have developed repressed anger towards them (even though I do not feel angry towards them!). Later in my teenage years, I wanted to rebel but only did on a few occasions - again probably adding to my repressed resentment towards my parents.
Also my parents, especially my mom, were very stoic. The only time I remember my parents showing emotions was when they were mad at my siblings or me for "acting bad". I cannot remember through out any of my childhood and even now opening up and being emotional with my parents. I almost had the feeling of, "Hey, you have to be tough and not show people your emotions. You must keep everything close to the vest." Thinking back, I again just thought this was how we were supposed to act but am starting to resentment my parents for leading me into a "stoic state".
No relief from the TMS pain symptoms, but I can feel myself gaining some psychological ground i.e. thinking pyscho vs. physical.
