Pain is shifting only after one week

[Pingman]

Came back to the forum for a refresher on TMS after using it to beat my pains back years ago. I have had a small health issue coupled with immense stress at work and not being able to do much during COVID...had originally led to Insomnia. I seem to have been able to turn that around quickly by embracing the no sleep, thinking that I will be ok without sleep if it happens and then relaxing when I wake up at night.

The TMS is moving now. I am having issues because I am associating it to my most recent weight loss and working out. I have lost about 40lbs since September and had recently started a treadmill and weight routine in December. Nothing major, just walking for an hour with some light running and light weights.

I do also have bad posture and I sit at a desk all day as a programmer. I have started to have what feel like knots in my lower back as well as sore upper gluts and pain in my left hip into my groin. The pain is also radiating up into my shoulders.

I haven't had an injury and aside from mild exercise I have had hard core stress for a month.

I am scheduled to go see a pelvic floor specialist on Wednesday who refrerred me to download the Curable app. The app is TMS focused so I assume her approach is trigger point therapy combined with TMS to deal with the stress.

So many people on the web claim they never heal from these things and seeing that is keeping my TMS belief at 98%.

I have gotten some really good advice from a few members. I can't seem to pinpoint if my pain is being produced because I fear it long term or if my subconscious is trying to keep me away from something. I can say that in life I had fallen into a rut of work/kids/church etc....

Now all I am doing is thinking about everything. Is my marriage what I had hoped for, I know I don't like my job. My relationship with my dad is not what I always thought it was. My relationship with my mom is void as she is self concerned.

I tend to overthink everything, down to the purchase of a small item like body wash. It is part of what has made me so successful at my job but I wonder if its the main influencer in my TMS. Now I am thinking about my marriage, job, faith, messing up my son from my TMS......

Just helps to get this out. Let me know if you see anything here that sticks out to you.

 

[TG957]

I tend to overthink everything, down to the purchase of a small item like body wash. It is part of what has made me so successful at my job but I wonder if its the main influencer in my TMS.

The answer is YES. A programmer of 25 years myself (until I realized that my personality was becoming too obsessive and introvert and I moved into a more people-oriented career), I can attest to it. An epidemic of carpal tunnel syndrom diagnoses among programmers is a combination of a pre-disposed personality type and a stress of the job itself. Your pain, your anxieties and your insomnia are connected vessels. I fight my fears and catastrophic thinking so amplified by my obsessions all the time. The more you unlearn all three, the sooner you recover. Speaking from my own experience.

 

[Pingman]

The feeling of anxiety is the worst. It is really scary and you feel like you may never feel normal. I only had it for a couple of weeks but they wanted to try and put me on meds and that made me even more nervous. Glad I held out.

I can't believe that I am someone who is so analytical and logical at work, gives great advice to others that seems so clear. I for some reason can't seem to follow any of it when it comes to myself.

 

[TG957]

The feeling of anxiety is the worst. It is really scary and you feel like you may never feel normal. I only had it for a couple of weeks but they wanted to try and put me on meds and that made me even more nervous. Glad I held out.

I can't believe that I am someone who is so analytical and logical at work, gives great advice to others that seems so clear. I for some reason can't seem to follow any of it when it comes to myself.

Yes, that's exactly how it feels - awful. Meditation is the best solution, at least for me.