This question was submitted via our Ask a TMS Therapist program. To submit your question, click here. Question I found the TMS program this August 2016 whilst I was in the most suffering state, depressed and desperate for anything that'll help me. My most intense symptoms started flaring up around december 2015. looking back, i knew it was all mind initiated. I truly accepted the diagnosis and from reading the books and forums informations, it just screams TMS. I also understand this from reading and studying on my own about mind-body connections and how psychology (thoughts) affect our life and health. Now i understand that my neck or any of my symptoms were not the result of structure or poor health. I understand that it's all about my thoughts, beliefs, emotions, etc. My first realization that it was truly mental was the first time i read 'healing back pain' by Dr. Sarno, my sharp shooting pain in my arms, hands, dissipated immediately as i was reading the words in the book. I saw myself in every page and felt a sense of relief i never experienced in a long time. However, i still have a lot of fear, doubts, and possible objections that all the work i did on my neck to fix a 'problem' that wasn't there actually caused it to become a problem now. I will explain. Currently, I am experiencing pain and fatigue everyday but I am managing my symptoms much better and better as I become more conscious and in control of my emotions. My most significant pain is in my neck and upper thoracic. It feels like there is constant tension all the time and it refers all the way up into my eyes, cheeks, temples and base of the skull. The thing is, before i got diagnosed and was told that i had a reverse curve and herniation in the neck, my neck wasn't really the problem. Only when I accepted that diagnosis and started seeking out treatments (deep massage, physical therapy, chiropractic, acupuncture) my neck just became worse and worse, and so did my overall well being and symptoms. I got more frequent headaches, my neck felt like it was popping and cracking in every single motion. I had so much facial pain that was never there before. Because of that, it limited my ability to live and do simple tasks. I was depressed and anxious all the time because of it. I became obsessed with my neck pain and thought about it every day, before and after sleep. My life revolved around it. I would spend time researching it for days and days. I tried EVERYTHING. I was so convinced that my neck was the problem and told everyone that. I basically became the guy who had a permanent neck injury. In the process of trying to fix my neck, my cervical spine actually changed shape and so did my thoracic back because of all the corrective exercises I did. I've used elastic bands to pull my neck to fix the reversed curve. I even used hanging neck traction to try to restore the curve. I remember that doing the exercise cause more pain, hurt and sharp shooting pain around my head, but i still kept doing them because i thought it was the only way. And all the doctors recommended it too. I would do these exercises pretty intensely and vigorously too, as there was a lot of anger in it for not getting better yet. My thoracic also became very flat, there is a loss of the natural kyphosis because i tried to force my chest up (thoracic extension) every position i moved. Little did i know that genetically, i was already born with a fairly flat thoracic so by doing those exercises, it just perpetuated the problem. I would focus on my neck exercises and thoracic extension exercises daily. I was also in more pain day by day. Because of these real structural changes, every time i press or do push ups, my chest hurts and it feels like there is something shooting inside. I can't workout or lift weights like i did before because my sternum hurts and my shoulder has sharp shooting pain all the time. But i still go and try do as much as i can. My muscles look atrophied, feel loose and soft when it's supposed to be the opposite when i train. I heard that when you have peripheral neuropathy, this phenomena can happen. How do i fully believe or accept the diagnosis of TMS when i can see and feel such changes. It just makes so much sense, because of all the things i did. Is there a way to undo what i did, in terms of structural changes? Could i have TMS but also another additional problems that's not related to TMS because of the things i have done to my body? Any advice is greatly appreciate and i am thankful for taking the time to read my rant.