I recently began experiencing debilitating panic attacks. They would hit me out of nowhere, including the minute I woke up. I've experienced anxiety throughout my life (even as a toddler, according to my parents), but never knew what a true panic attack was until a few months ago. I would go from being fine one moment to feeling my body shake uncontrollably and fearing that I was dying as well as about to lose control and go insane. Sometimes I didn't even feel real, almost like I was experiencing a negative psychedelic or cannabis trip that left me depersonalized (if you've ever had a psychedelic or cannabis trip that took a turn for the worse, you know exactly what I'm talking about). It was absolutely terrifying. As I had just gotten off Cymbalta, I initially suspected my brain was "out of whack" from a way-too-quick taper off the pills. I also wondered if medical cannabis had negatively affected my brain and made some sort of underlying disorder come to light (my strongest vape is 82% THC, and trust me when I say it's VERY trippy - you're on another planet when you try that kind of stuff).
However, the truth was that my amygdala and sympathetic nervous system were simply overreacting from years of stress, and I was able to put an end to the panic attacks myself. I'm doing incredibly well now!
Ultimately, believing that something was wrong with my brain was only triggering the panic attacks even more. What helped me was the 12 second chill technique (see the attached PDF), as well as learning how panic attacks occur (
click here for Michael Norman's "The Panic Mistake" video).
In a nutshell:
- Panic "attacks" should instead be referred to as panic mistakes, as they're nothing more than the result of your body mistakenly thinking you're in danger and trying to protect you by going into fight-or-flight mode (very common when one has an overactive sympathetic nervous system, as those with TMS do)
- Fearing or attempting to "talk yourself out of" panic mistakes will make them worse because your sympathetic nervous system senses your continued anxiety, further sending it into fight-or-flight mode
- Acknowledging the symptoms you are experiencing and accepting them as a "mistake" made by your sympathetic nervous system that will soon pass is a much more effective way to end them - this is where the 12 second chill comes in for me. Michael Norman recommends trying to force yourself to have the worst panic "attack" ever (click here for his theory), as people soon realize they cannot heighten the physical sensations anymore, and the "attack" ends. However, I personally prefer the 12 second chill method
- The above is not to be interpreted as a relaxation technique. While some people may quickly feel relaxed after engaging in the 12 second chill, the goal is to truly acknowledge and accept the symptoms, as opposed to actively trying to stop them. Without even thinking about it, you will eventually achieve natural relaxation with full acceptance and understanding of what's going on in your body. You will get better at this with more practice. The genius Claire Weekes, whom you already appear to be familiar with, also touched on this
I went from wondering how I was going to make it through life feeling like I was dying and not real to functioning
much better than I ever have. This has also helped me with mood swings (anxiety, depression, anger, etc. all play into one another for me because I always felt such a lack of control in my life from the anxiety). Other anti-anxiety techniques such as tapping only had a temporary effect for me - I needed to learn about why panic attacks happen and acknowledge and accept them to get 100% better.
And remember you aren't alone. I've been there and got better. Singer and actress Noami Judd said the following about her nocturnal panic attacks, which I personally found helpful:
"Panic attacks. They're very, very strange. ... For me, I was awakened usually at about 3:30 in the morning when you're at your lowest brain wave activity, when you're really asleep. And it's insane, it's so hard to describe because I sat bolt upright in bed and I just felt like I was going crazy, hallucinating and your heart's pounding, you're hyperventilating. If it goes on, you feel tingly in your fingertips, you can get some blurry vision and you feel slightly nauseous. And you really think you're going to just die."