Hi. Well here I am . For the first time in a long while I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am a 45 y.o woman, and I have experienced many ongoing health issues since I was a child including Acute gallbladder pain from age 9 to 26 ( it was removed then) Recurring iritis Joint pain TMJ acute episode lasting 5 weeks 2 episodes of Shingles and regular post shingles neuralgia Hashimoto's thyroiditis Severe fatigue And the latest a relentless irritable bladder.. Ongoing for the last 5 months !! Yesterday I lost it..couldn't go on the lowest I had been in a long while. 5 months of almost 24 hour a day pain, inability to sleep to concentrate, to paint ( I am an artist) to connect with my kids. I went home to fall apart. I logged on to the Internet and put in a search about not coping. This site came up. I read all I could and began to wonder... I woke up today with hope, I taught a class and played with my kids. I read the first two chapters of 'healing back pain' The ironic thing is that I teach others to connect with themselves through the process of spontaneous painting..guess I need to work on myself more! I am excited and scared, but eager to see where this takes me. I have felt broken for a long time. Can't wait to fell better!