Yesterday afternoon i started to realize that i was starting be become tense and have headache symtpoms. I became a little fearful of this but had contnued talking to my bairn. I continued with my positive affirmations and continued drilling into my head that this pain was real, but i had caused it myself, and that nothing I ate or did (triggers I have created) was the cause of this. This however did not work and by 2 my pain was distracting my fully. My head was throbbing and I could barely even talk to myself anymore. I knew this was not good and the purpose of the pain. I just wanted it to stop. I was adimint about not taking my mediciation that I would usually take. I tried going about my daily activities when I got home, but the pain was unbearable, I had to lay down. After laying down for about an hour, i got up and tried resuming all normal activies. My fiancee came over and tried helping me remain positive and reminded me how well I had been doing. This helped. He is compltely supportive of this diagnosis and becomes more trusting of it after more days pass and I havent had one. I had gone 10 days without having one before the one yesterday. And to be honest, i started doing the program but stopped after 5 days because i was feeling good and knew what i needed to do to stay well. I definitely dont think the knowledge hurts though to continue learning about it. Needless to say I woke up in the middle of the night with my head still pounding and woke up this morning with it really bad as well. IT was acutally making me feel sick (dizzy and naseous). VERY distracting. I continued trying to talk to my brain and remain positive. Anyone who gets migraines knows how hard it is to focus on anything in the middle of your head throbbing. I decided to finally take my medicaiton around 10 and woke up around 12 with it feeling a little better. I am really mad at myself for doing this but i was unsure what else to do. I feel defeated. I know i caused this pain. What could I have done differently? I completely beleive in this process. I am starting to think this on was self induced becuase I was about to start my cycle. I am used to always get them around my time of month, before during and after, mainly becuase doctors attribute mgiraines to mainly females and attribute it to your cycle. All I can think is that I was thinking about that and how, in the past, this has been a trigger for me.