Hello all, I am on day three of the structured program, although this is not new to me, as I have been trying to get rid of chronic pain using Dr. Sarno's methods for the past four years. Obviously, there are still many emotions I haven't been able to bring to the surface and process, or my pain would have gone by now. I am seeing a therapist, who has helped me with a number of emotions, primarily anger from being bullied as a child, by my classmates, as well as my twin brother who just hated life. This Trumatic experience followed me through the years, all the way into adulthood, where I was so concerned about how people thought of me that I would do anything to make them accept me, including things that I didn't want to do, which of course was enraging. My therapist correlated something that I didn't even think about, and that was that as a child I always wondered what I did wrong to deserve being bullied, and into adulthood, what I have done wrong to have this chronic pain. This makes a lot of sense. It really made me think about putting up a wall, and that is that I can control my pain, whereas as a child, I couldn't control being bullied. Anyway, I feel like I need to get to where at least dealing with these angry feelings and emotions from childhood, will finally help me find a way to deal with the traumas of my adulthood life, including almost dying after the birth of my third and last child. I finally have acccepted that I have TMS 100%. And after almost 20 years of chronic pain, I finally have a huge amount of hope that I can finally be pain-free again. I look forward to getting to know people on this forum and hopefully we can support each other through this challenging but rewarding journey.