Lavender, you said much in a short paragraph, I'll try to respond before Easter dinner starts,
When you say that a cell reaction has begun and won't turn off, that's a guided image. That means, it's a perception you have, which then becomes a deep belief. Your cells now alter to match your belief. Before the pages of my book began I placed 3 quotes on the inside cover, one by Rohr, one by Lipton, and one by yours truly. Lipton's is in the center for a reason. He is one of the eminent cell-biologists in the world who has been treated poorly like Dr. Sarno in the industry for some of his amazing discoveries. God help those who stand for truth.
Your beliefs alter your cells, they determine what signals are sent to the cells and how those cells will react. If I can find a video for you I'll post it below. We are not determined by our cells, they are determined by our perception of our environment; environment being belief. So when someone like Dr. Sarno comes along and tells everyone, "hey your body is ok, you only think it is broken," the people who believe him begin to heal, those who have doubts continue to struggle.
Also---you are only in the beginning stage of healing, June is not that long of a time for healing from a debilitating disorder. But, you also appear to have been on the wrong track in healing. Knowledge alone is only sufficient in a small number of cases. It takes a hell of a lot more than knowledge to heal in most people. It takes a life change. I've posted here before about my good friend who caught his wife in bed with a guy in Vegas (apparently what happened there didn't stay there). He got cancer of his corneas within a short time. He didn't want to "see" what he had seen and so his body reacted to accommodate his deepest desire. His brain did him a favor to help him avoid his deep heartache; it gave him something to worry about instead of feeling the anger and frustration, and sorrow. He quickly ran away from his stressful job and horny wife and moved back here to Ohio to the country, among the soft wind and sun, to work on a farm. His surgeon at The Ohio State University is amazed that his cancer is now gone. He told my friend, "whatever you're doing keep doing it!" He's now free of all disease. He had to change his life and get out of the boxing ring that was causing him deep pain and disharmony. He had to reconnect with nature and begin to send new signals to his cells much like Shin Itchero Terayama did. You have to send new energy to your cells, and begin a new life-perspective. You have to begin to see through "new eyes."
Miffy is correct, don't get caught up in what so-called experts say. They're experts in everything, except in how to heal people. They can scientifically describe everything in a erudite manner, but they can't help anyone, because healing comes from within and they're looking to treat people from the outside. By the way Miffy, your language has changed, you sounded upbeat and moving in the right direction. That's the beginning of healing, good job! I'll always remember how soft and sweet your voice was. That's the problem; you want to scream, but superego says be good and quiet, thus, conflict in a mind divided. The real Miffy is screaming to express herself, but she feels she cannot------yet.
Those Charlie Rose "experts" are wrong! Depression comes first and THEN symptoms, just like with pain. Then of course the cycle begins and depression worsens from the symptoms. But your brain is doing you a favor to avoid sensing how depressed you are. So it gives you a body problem to divert you toward body, and away from a life that is not going as you had planned. To quote the sage, "if you stay on the path you are on, you will get where you are headed."
Change paths to heal. The one you are on is not taking you where you want to go. Self-deception means that you have convinced yourself that the lie is the truth. Wherever you feel your life is ok, that may be the core of the problem. Ego is at the heart of all of our life-problems. I don't know you or where you're from. Me don't know nothen; but I have lived.
Mermaid it's time to meet you. If you can find a skype camera and a bottle of liquor let's talk. You can help many many people. You not only were burned by the fire and grew from it, you also have the ability to communicate well.
Steve