I have been in pain since 1989, when I came off benzodiazepines (ATIVAN) which had been prescribed for me for 27 years, after visiting my gp for advice about my mother who was telephoning me every day telling me she was being beaten up by my father and by my two schizophrenic brothers. At age 23, in 1967, before I was prescribed benzodiazepines, I was starting a successful career as a painter, and was working as a freelance journalist writing reviews of Books on Art and exhibitions, after I had been on benzos for a few weeks, I had a paradoxical reaction to the drugs and developed anxiety and agoraphobia, and nobody connected this with the benzos, this was the beginning of an existence which caused me to attempt suicide at least twice. Ignorance about the side effects of benzos was universal. I lost a baby at 6 months because of these side effects, and became a recluse until 1989, when I finally discovered what was causing my problems. So I had a lifetime of dealing with domestic abuse, with no support from anybody and another lifetime of fibromyalgia and tinnitus and it all got so much worse 6 years ago, after I came off caffeine, I developed worse insomnia, CFS, and the worst thing of all, my walking gradually deteriorated, until I could not walk on my heels, i still have this problem, toe walking, which is painful and exhausting, Walking very fast used to be my one pleasure, so not being able to walk is a dreadful plight for me to be in. This was at the same time that I got Bell's Palsy, which has left me with a permanent dropped lip and a problem with drooling and a speech impediment. My handwriting has also deteriorated, because my hands move too fast, and i can't slow them down. At this point (6 years ago), I was renting a studio in order to make ceramics and had been forcing myself to work 24/7 in order to finish work for exhibitions. Anyway, my current symptoms are pain in almost every part of my body, CFS, insomnia, headaches, tingling feelings in my hands and legs, tinnitus, problems with speech and walking, anxiety and depression, irritability, clumsiness, and a myriad other symptoms which i don't have the energy to describe. I am waiting for the results of an MRI scan for Parkinson's which I am certain that I do not have I am 76 years old, and cannot wait to feel better... I am sorry that this post is muddled, but I need to start the program!