Hi Everyone, Thanks to any and all who read this and can provide me some advice. Truly appreciated. I am a 26 year old male, formerly very active (loved to hike, competed as a Muay Thai fighter, and ran marathons) who has been struggling with what I believe to be TMS for the past two years. Two years ago I had graduated Physical Therapy school and went on a solo backpacking trip across SE asia, even attending a Muay Thai fight camp in Thailand. I had been training a lot and noticed that my back would hurt in the morning. As a fighter, I just shrugged it off and kept on with my training. But then one day I woke up with excruciating back pain. I attributed it to the training at the time but realize now that there were definitely some family stresses going on at the time. I waited a year before deciding to get an MRI since I learned in PT school about decreased outcomes w/ pre emptive MRI. They found two disc bulges which in my mind didn't really change anything. Fast forward two months from that and I found Sarno's healing back pain and decided to take that approach. I have even been seeing a TMS therapist. But these past few weeks I have begun to feel pretty frustrated and have begun to feel doubt creep into my mind. The back pain is improved but it is still very much there; particularly when I have to lift at my job or even at the most random times. I also have foot pain that has been worsening and isn't really letting up. I've seen two separate podiatrist both of whom weren't able to provide any real answers (one of them insisted I get surgery right away because I had rolled my ankle back when I was 11 lol). This may be the symptom imperative but I just don't know anymore. I am scared of injuring myself further. Overall, I think I am pretty lucky in that while I have pain I am generally still pretty functional. I work in a hospital where I meet people living with truly severe chronic pain and disability and can't believe how fortunate I am. But I often find myself catastrophizing however and can't help but wonder if that is also in my future. I am just so tired of putting on a brave face all the time. And being the only one among my friends who seems to be having all these health issues. Thanks for listening.