Thinking....ok....I have very flat feet) as a kid I had to wear those god awful Claude hoppers orthopedic shoes. I felt really self-conscious wearing those things.... When I was in about 5 or 7th grade I would steal shoes to wear instead of the prescribed shoes... I would hide them in a bag and change when I got out the door....Here’s this little skinny girl with flat feet prancing around in platform shoes! LOL OMG! ..... About at the age of 12-13 I was taken to the funeral home and told this is your Grandfather. I never knew I had a Grandfather. Afterwards over the years we had to hear how my Grandfather abused my father and left him on the streets as a 5 year old that ended up in an orphanage. My Dad never abused me but always brought up what a life he had. I think that was about the time I decided I wasn't going to have kids. Mainly because I felt if I did I might become an abuser myself. My other brother although he had children he said the same thing. Most of my pre-adult life I've had some sort of pain. Thinking back my pain started when I landed my first job. I worked in the kitchen of a nursing home washing pots and pans. I can remember being bent over the sinks with stomach pains. The doctor would say I had gastritis and said to take Mylanta. That went on off and on for a few years. The stomach pain was I would say replaced by foot pains....I needed to have orthotics so I didn't have achy feet.... To this day I still need to wear orthotics...During the job above I would have fainting spells...Doctor said I was anemic so I had to take iron pills off and on and still do... Speeding up the years.... I met a guy and got married. He had a real thing with pulling telephones off walls and throw them from one end of the house to the other. I started getting stomach problems at times.....During this time my oldest brother died....I have guilt because he came over to visit me and I was too busy studying for biology class.... that was the last time I seen him. A couple of years after my brother died I divorced my husband and met another guy who was a high school sweetheart... Little did I know he was as nuts as my ex-husband. He was a drug addict and weekend alcoholic (I don't drink, never have, mainly because my Dad was a drinker and didn't want to be like him) He had major problems that came out during his acid trips and killed cats! Long story short I got pregnant by him had an abortion for obvious reasons. Got away from him and once he found me he harassed and stalked me. I had to charge him and move away...During this time I developed hypoglycemia A short time later I met my now husband who had a 9 year old girl. The morning I woke up after getting married I had headaches above my right eye...Every few weeks I have and still get these headaches for 2-3 days... The day of our wedding my father says to me "there's still time" meaning are you sure you want to get married? OMG you have got to be kidding me Dad?!?! I was furious. the day of the wedding was awful, it was the hottest day of the year, I had my Dad asking me if I thought I was making the right decision, my step-daughter thought I was made at her, my mother-in-law decided she was going to split in the middle of the pictures being taken, my sister-in-law who no one likes showed up and a god awful dress, I was totally embarrassed, I never did the father daughter dance...why would I? Mom was furious at dad, they sped off. What a day! Some months had passed and I began hearing rumors that my husbands brother had been a convicted killer! I did some investigating and yes he was, it was confirmed by my step-daughters Mother. (yes we get along) My step-daughter was 9 when I met her she’s now 27. Our relationship was hard until she was about 23 now we get along as long as her dad doesn’t get into our picture. Out camping and a German Shepard attacked our dog, almost killed him but he survivor. I now have fear of big dogs near our dogs. After that my left foot started really giving me pain. I could hardly walk on it. Then one day I bent over and got a terrible pain in my right lower back, it made me cry out in pain. I yelled upstairs to my husband who in turned yelled out at me. He has no bedside manner btw....I started going to the chiropractor for magnetic therapy treatments for my foot and lower back... Then my Dad found out he had cancer 82 years old....my brother and his wife where over and my brother was disrespecting my mother and Dad told him to never come back...and he didn't. My husband and I live and hour away and had to take Dad to his cancer treatments and appointments for the next 3 years. My brother lived a block away and so did my nephew....My dad passed away and none of them showed up at the funeral home. We haven’t seen them since early 2009. We ended up selling our house and moved closer to mom to look after her....Sometime during this cloud I started having off and on diarrhea. I had a food intolerance test that come back as potato and peanuts....So I stopped eating them and no more diarrhea! Mom decided she was going to put the house up for sale after 2 years.... hubby and I moved her into a retirement setting she loves it but I’m the one how has to hear everything that she hates about it!..... Then 3 months later I'm bedridden with lower back and leg pain in Feb. 2015 I went to see the doctor who sent me to the Physiotherapist. She pressed onto where my neck and shoulder meet.....I freaked out it hurt so much! I never went back to her, the next morning my ear started draining clear fluid..... Later that evening I laid down, didn't feel right and every single muscle in my legs went into spasm..... Went to ER and nothing was found....All within a matter of days this happened... I broke out in a odd itchy rash on my stomach doctor gave me cream.... Then my back and right Leg pain started..... I went to a chiropractor who used active release...... She diagnosed me with a little herniation I thought she said L3-5 and myofascitis, and a little piriformis..... My doctor, Chiropractor, and new PT all agreed no MRI or CT is needed. .I had nothing but time so I started doing research and asked the doctor to do a MAG RBC, IRON, B12 blood work......All this was done in ER but the MAG RBC...long story short the MAG RBC was low end of normal.....b12, iron was low to. The Doctor didn't catch it until I made him aware.....Anyhow the MAG is slowly coming back up and iron and b12 is too..... Fast forward I started reading about John Sarno and I'm fully convinced my pain is TMS.....I was able to have maybe 2 weeks with hardly any pain this summer.....until I tried some Hanna Somatics then it started up again!..... It's strange because since it started in Feb I've had pain in my right leg....pins needles, tingling, pulling, cold spots, burning, I've had pain in my left leg.... Both upper buttocks...waist pain...Hip pain...I could go on and on! Most recently I’ve started having upper right foot pain when walking that’s new! Also, last night I almost jumped out of my chair with a shock like sensation in my left foot. Itchy soles of feet a couple of weeks ago, this is all along with the leg and back pains…weird!! A life without TMS OMG I would love it! I would most like to deal with my anger in a healthy manner instead of keeping it in and not dealing with it. My husband is the type of person that doesn’t say a word about what’s bothering him, I’m sure I’ve learned this from him! I just want this pain to be gone, out of my life, go somewhere else not in me! We live near trails I'd love to be able to walk them with our dogs without fearing other dogs. Be able to go on day trips walking, let alone walking thru a shopping mall without being in pain! Being able to clean the house, unpack from even moving! There's other crap in there I haven't gotten to but there you go! I’m pretty darn sure I have TMS what do you all think? Sorry for the long, long post!