jimmylaw9
Peer Supporter
I have several separate pains in my body. Full medical shows nothing structural, and while I am still battling for a resolution for some of my pain (deep gluteal/piriformis pain and burning feet), I feel obliged to write about a success that I had this morning while fresh in my mind that may encourage other users to do/feel similar.
Like most I have read/studied everything and wondered after a year why am I not getting better because I believed I was doing everything right, meditation, reducing stressors, self loving, etc.
One thing I thought I was doing well was recognising and being present with the pain and accepting it (then why? why is it not reducing?).
Well here’s why. When I feel it, which is pretty much constant 24/7, I did start off accepting it, feeling it, etc, but very quickly, unconsciously, I started fretting, how long will it last? when will it go? why me? etc! And even in my mind when I thought I was accepting it I have realised after an event this morning that I soon went back to fearing it sub or unconsciously very quickly.
So to this morning. For the past three days I have had searing pain in my thigh like a dead leg that would not go away, no onset at all. You know that dead leg feeling in sport that happens, lasts for 5 mins, really sore, then disappears. Well mine didn’t.
Of course I recognised it as TMS and was doing what I thought was the right things and it was just getting worse. As usual and like my other symptoms it was stopping me from living my life, doing what I had to or wanted to do. I was gutted.
So I woke up this morning in real dull achy pain. Nothing abs nothing was stopping it. Like the deadest of dead legs. So I was at my wits end. I tried ignoring it, couldn’t. The pain was intense like an 8/10. Tried moving around positions, nothing. I thought okay accept it feel the emotion remind yourself it’s brain induced etc and it didn’t work, as usual and eventually I probably subconsciously began fearing it trying to avoid it but it was not going away. So I thought f this!
I decided if this is my life then so be it. If I’m going to have it all day all week month so be it. I’m not dying or dead. I know there is nothing wrong with me. I have the full capacity that it is TMS and exactly what that is. So now no matter what happens next I’m am not going to get fearful. I’m simply going to dive right slap bang into the pain.
No avoiding it, not even accepting it etc, just dive right into the pain. Let it get worse. In Fact, let it get as bad as it can possibly get. I can still hear myself now saying come on you b’...d can you get any worse than that get to a ten!
I lost it. I just lost my fear, acceptance, self loving, running away from it etc. I just wanted it to hurt, and badly. And it did! It did get worse. It actually did, but do you know what, I felt it getting worse.
Immediately after saying do your worst, it did. Was I scared, probably, but I had really had it. If this was it I was going to stop fretting getting from a 8 to a 3 pain and was saying screw you I’m going to live with an 8 in fact do your worst then I can really stop worrying.
Well after about 5 mins of swimming in this pain (which I had for three days solid) guess what? Just as I felt it ramping up like a freeking light switch it went off. Nothing, zilch, zero.
Now I have no idea how to label this and I realise I have been typing an experience now that’s prob went to long. But like many others I used to ask, “Yeah, I’ve read the books got the knowledge of TMS but HOW in the name of Jesus does it go away or you get rid of it?”.
So whilst I have still got other symptoms and don’t qualify as a proper success story if you, like me, were looking for a “How to do it success story” then here’s my how from this morning while it’s still fresh in my memory.
I felt completely invigorated and totally excited after that this morning. I am going to spend time now doing exactly the same with other parts of my TMS pain.
Will it work the same? Who knows but I am a real TMS sufferer as described in all the books, and this is a genuine incidence that happened this morning.
I hope this helps others in the way it worked for me.
Thank you to all the posters who have encouraged me so far and for the people who maintain the site. I’ll hopefully acknowledge everyone in my final post if I manage to complete my TMS journey.
Jimmy.
Like most I have read/studied everything and wondered after a year why am I not getting better because I believed I was doing everything right, meditation, reducing stressors, self loving, etc.
One thing I thought I was doing well was recognising and being present with the pain and accepting it (then why? why is it not reducing?).
Well here’s why. When I feel it, which is pretty much constant 24/7, I did start off accepting it, feeling it, etc, but very quickly, unconsciously, I started fretting, how long will it last? when will it go? why me? etc! And even in my mind when I thought I was accepting it I have realised after an event this morning that I soon went back to fearing it sub or unconsciously very quickly.
So to this morning. For the past three days I have had searing pain in my thigh like a dead leg that would not go away, no onset at all. You know that dead leg feeling in sport that happens, lasts for 5 mins, really sore, then disappears. Well mine didn’t.
Of course I recognised it as TMS and was doing what I thought was the right things and it was just getting worse. As usual and like my other symptoms it was stopping me from living my life, doing what I had to or wanted to do. I was gutted.
So I woke up this morning in real dull achy pain. Nothing abs nothing was stopping it. Like the deadest of dead legs. So I was at my wits end. I tried ignoring it, couldn’t. The pain was intense like an 8/10. Tried moving around positions, nothing. I thought okay accept it feel the emotion remind yourself it’s brain induced etc and it didn’t work, as usual and eventually I probably subconsciously began fearing it trying to avoid it but it was not going away. So I thought f this!
I decided if this is my life then so be it. If I’m going to have it all day all week month so be it. I’m not dying or dead. I know there is nothing wrong with me. I have the full capacity that it is TMS and exactly what that is. So now no matter what happens next I’m am not going to get fearful. I’m simply going to dive right slap bang into the pain.
No avoiding it, not even accepting it etc, just dive right into the pain. Let it get worse. In Fact, let it get as bad as it can possibly get. I can still hear myself now saying come on you b’...d can you get any worse than that get to a ten!
I lost it. I just lost my fear, acceptance, self loving, running away from it etc. I just wanted it to hurt, and badly. And it did! It did get worse. It actually did, but do you know what, I felt it getting worse.
Immediately after saying do your worst, it did. Was I scared, probably, but I had really had it. If this was it I was going to stop fretting getting from a 8 to a 3 pain and was saying screw you I’m going to live with an 8 in fact do your worst then I can really stop worrying.
Well after about 5 mins of swimming in this pain (which I had for three days solid) guess what? Just as I felt it ramping up like a freeking light switch it went off. Nothing, zilch, zero.
Now I have no idea how to label this and I realise I have been typing an experience now that’s prob went to long. But like many others I used to ask, “Yeah, I’ve read the books got the knowledge of TMS but HOW in the name of Jesus does it go away or you get rid of it?”.
So whilst I have still got other symptoms and don’t qualify as a proper success story if you, like me, were looking for a “How to do it success story” then here’s my how from this morning while it’s still fresh in my memory.
I felt completely invigorated and totally excited after that this morning. I am going to spend time now doing exactly the same with other parts of my TMS pain.
Will it work the same? Who knows but I am a real TMS sufferer as described in all the books, and this is a genuine incidence that happened this morning.
I hope this helps others in the way it worked for me.
Thank you to all the posters who have encouraged me so far and for the people who maintain the site. I’ll hopefully acknowledge everyone in my final post if I manage to complete my TMS journey.
Jimmy.
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