I've been following the program and doing a lot of journal work lately. I've known about my childhood issues for many years, having done therapy in the past (my mom was mentally ill, my dad abusive). However, as I was tracing the history of my tms symptoms, I realized there was a strong correlation with my son. I developed migraines when he was just over 1, I started getting tension headaches when he started daycare and I went back to work and this turned into full-blown chronic neck pain when he started school. Because of my intense fear of abandonment, I have reacted very strongly to the separation with him (even though on the surface I am not a controlling or smothering type of mom). I'm always afraid that something bad will happen to him and that somehow it would be my fault. I'm also resentful (and this is the hard part to admit) about how small my life has gotten because of the way I am being a mom. I take meticulous care of my son in every way, especially emotionally. I think i feel resentful - not of him, the situation- because I did not get anything from my mom because of her disease. This insight about the correlation between my pain and my role as a mother is completely new to me. I'm finding it really painful. Has anyone else experienced tms in relation to their roles as parents. It's hard for me to even write these lines because it makes me feel like a very awful person.