Hey guys, Looking for some support or words or something. I just happened to notice that today marks my 1-year since first injuring my back (thanks, Facebook "on this day!"), and then probably about 6-months since I began treating it as TMS. Compared to how I was when I went from the mindset of physical- to mental-based-pain, it's a huge difference. I can now sit through my 3-hour classes with relative ease, whereas I used to have to stand through them. ... but I haven't really seen much progress since then. Yes, I can sit through the classes, but it's more than I make myself do so because I know it's not hurting me to do it. It's still not comfortable. I still am in pain most of the day. For the past 4-5 months, I've been going through a cycle. I have 1 or 2 days where I'm in little pain (or sometimes even no pain), and then another ~7 where I'm back in varying levels of pain. I'm not seeing more pain free days... I'm seeing about the same as I have since I began treating this as TMS. In fact, I'm seeing about the same number of pain-free days as when I first injured my back in Nov-17. I went through a period back then where I refused to look at forums about "herniated discs" or do any research, during which I made a bit of a recovery and had up-and-down days. That all changed after seeing another doctor that scared me and ruined it all. I don't know what to do to break this pattern. I have no idea what sets me back into these painful days, I can't draw any conclusions. I'm fine for some of my most stressful and emotional days, but not others; I'm in pain on some calm, relaxing days, but not on others. I'm working with a psychotherapist AND with Alan Gordon's Pain Psychology Center, both for around 4-5 months now. I've seen some improvements, but not anything that stays, not anything overly drastic, and not anything recently. I don't know how to keep up hope when I just feel like I'm going in circles... I'm so tired of spending my days in pain and having to work on this. I don't know how to keep this up.