Lydia
Peer Supporter
Since I've been starting up this program, I live more easily. The perfectionist in me is more quiet, as it seems. Says 'hello' sometimes and that's it. I'm not caught up so much anymore in 'shoulds' and 'musts'. That's wonderful!
Also, a lot of old issues have been released, in one way or another. Amazing experiences have come by. This has opened my eyes and I remember now why journaling was kind of 'life-saving' when I was an adolescent. I need it back into my daily life!
The pain in my right shoulder/upper arm has kind of moved to the left side. Not as bad as the right side used to be, but still very present and kind of annoying. My mind loves it, and can't wait to make a drama out of that.
I can smile about it, though, knowing that some emotional issues still wait to be acknowledged. In the mean time I have my right-arm-life back! And that's really amazing to me!!! Time for celebration! I even can lay on my right arm for more than 10 minutes, which wasn't possible for more than 15 years. Unlearning the pain, and facing up to the triggers (of laying down) and conditioning... this is a very strong and healing process!
So, I manage to stay calm and take time for the left side. Step by step. No panic, no obsession, no identification. Excercising, having fun, making future plans in the mean time... that's more important than this pain going away, now. And I'm very proud of that!
Also, a lot of old issues have been released, in one way or another. Amazing experiences have come by. This has opened my eyes and I remember now why journaling was kind of 'life-saving' when I was an adolescent. I need it back into my daily life!
The pain in my right shoulder/upper arm has kind of moved to the left side. Not as bad as the right side used to be, but still very present and kind of annoying. My mind loves it, and can't wait to make a drama out of that.
I can smile about it, though, knowing that some emotional issues still wait to be acknowledged. In the mean time I have my right-arm-life back! And that's really amazing to me!!! Time for celebration! I even can lay on my right arm for more than 10 minutes, which wasn't possible for more than 15 years. Unlearning the pain, and facing up to the triggers (of laying down) and conditioning... this is a very strong and healing process!
So, I manage to stay calm and take time for the left side. Step by step. No panic, no obsession, no identification. Excercising, having fun, making future plans in the mean time... that's more important than this pain going away, now. And I'm very proud of that!
