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missing my freedom

Discussion in 'Support Subforum' started by karinabrown, Jul 30, 2016.

  1. karinabrown

    karinabrown Well known member

    Hi all,

    Lately not most posting from me, but frequent reading.
    Started early 2016 with reading and learning about tms. and still do, but slowed it down major>
    In the beginning was totally into it , wich means in my case : overdoing it:
    thinkin about it and journalizing etc. i knew i had to slow it down and made it more a' parttime" task.
    In the mean time ; my pain is footpain; I started with small walks 2 times a week.
    the rest of the week I have to manage the rest of my life wich ofcourse involves walking and doing more than twice is not working (believe me i tried)
    So in my case my days are when it comes to using my feet split up in many small parts during my days.
    this has been my life for 2 years : the two years befor (I am dealing with it 4 years now) I could
    hardly move at all. (saw specialist . had mri's etc. no help there)

    I manage as good as i cann nowadays : started to study after I lost my job due to the footproblem.
    you could say i live as good as i can with the footpain, have some improvement. and most of the
    time I found some joy back in my life despite all the limitations.
    Back to the small walks : 5 months later : have doubled my distance ; wich is still not much :
    doing 20 minutes now. wich should be huge to me ; but ofcourse :) i am not overjoyed
    hoped to be futher after all those months. But still improving and keeping the pain on the same low
    level lately so that's not too bad. But then came this week (no special things happened ), more pain and more stiff muscles and bang : there comes fear and even worse : there comes doubt. had more of those small flare ups but this time i feel more discouraged,
    today i thougth : who am i fooling here ? it has been four years : i doubt i will ever go back to fully functioning.
    maybe stop working on that?
    so this is a real psychological setback which i really do not need.
    i called this tread "missing my freedom" because that what i felt today : A real sad feeling about missing my life : just have the ability to walk out the door and enjoy that feeling and do all the things i could do.

    so now i wonder ; should i stop 'fighting" this doubt and just let it go by (hopefully)
    or should one battle this doubt and fear..??

    Last edited: Jul 30, 2016
  2. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi, Karina. You miss your former freedom in walking, but should feel positive, knowing you are walking and can work on walking farther each time. Fighting doubt and fear can be a biggie, but I believe meditation can help...

    Meditation is a time-honored way of relaxing the mind and relieving anxiety, mental stress, headaches, and even physical pain. There are many ways to practice meditation, but many consider the most successful to be a technique called the Relaxation Response (RR). It is a wonderful way to practice TMS Mindbody Healing because it changes harmful thinking in the subconscious mind which Dr. John Sarno says causes pain that is not caused by anything structural.

    The RR, practiced once or twice a day for 10, 15, or 20 minutes has a profound positive effect on the subconscious mind, relieving or curing everything from anxiety, hypertension, headaches, fatigue, nervousness, dizziness, high blood pressure, insomnia, stomach problems, all forms of pain including backaches, abdominal pain, muscle pain, neck, arm, and leg pain, and relieves side affects from cancer and AIDS.

    RR is like Transcendental Meditation which is taught by TM specialists who charge hundreds or thousands of dollars. But the RR is free and you can do it yourself.

    It is practiced, before a meal, and works best if not practiced within two hours after a meal. I do it in bed before arising in the morning and again in bed before falling sleep. Often, I only do it 5 or 10 minutes and it works to calm me and put me to sleep.

    Just sit in a chair (or lie in bed in the morning or at bedtime), close your eyes, don’t listen to any music, and try to avoid outside noises. Let your mind think of a word such as

    "One " which has no real meaning or association. Or say a calming word such as “Calm” or “Peace,” or add the faith or spiritual element by saying a favorite religious word or prayer. Breathe naturally or incorporate Deep Breathing by breathing in through the mouth to inflate the stomach, suck in the stomach while holding the breath for a few seconds, then say the word when you exhale through the mouth.

    Say the word silently over and over. At the end of the 10 to 20 minutes, picture and feel yourself as you were when you felt your best, and in a place where you felt that way.

    When distracting thoughts arise during the RR, as they will, just tell yourself, “Oh, well,” and go back to repeating your chosen word.

    My "word" is a prayer: "God loves me and is protecting me." I say it a few times and go right to sleep. If my mind wanders onto other things, I tell myself"Oh, well," and repeat my mantra silently while deep breathing.

    There are several free videos on Youtube about the Relaxation Response. I especially recommend these two by Dr. Benson:

    and this one which can put you to sleep:


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  3. karinabrown

    karinabrown Well known member

    Hi Walt,

    thank you for this!
    but : I already do a lot of breathing exercises (meditation) and muscle relaxations.

    will try this too but doubt that it will bring something extra...
  4. Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021)

    Walt Oleksy (RIP 2021) Beloved Grand Eagle

    I like the RR because it takes my mind off everything else.

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