Hello, I have not posted in a few months. I found out about Dr. Sarno and TMS in May and used his books/the structured educational program to help resolve some bad shoulder/neck tension. It was a life-saver and only took about 2 weeks to get back to almost normal. Since then I've been generally living more healthy, including diet, exercise and meditation. Something that I have been noticing, my TMS pain flares up before and during meditation classes. I am trying to figure out why. It re-emerged in mid-August around half-way through my 8-week meditation class. It was only really bad in the hours before a class and the first half of the class. That’s when I began TMS journaling again. This helped overall but the flare-ups before class persisted (I would also notice an embarrassing onset of gas before/during class some days). I found meditation challenging but generally enjoyed the 2.5 hour class, so I was not sure why TMS was flaring up. I also found that when we reached the discussion section of the class I would share my experiences and the pain/tension would be relieved greatly. Finally, meditation when I am alone does not seem to trigger pain or tension in nearly the same way. With journaling and the end of the meditation course I had almost no TMS pain, but this weekend I signed up for a 6 hours Sunday mindfulness retreat. I noticed an onset of mild tension and pain the evening before. Nothing bad. On the day of, I was pretty good for the first couple of hours but then the tension and pain really settled in my neck and shoulders and it got quite bad. Over lunch it receded but came back in the afternoon. It’s especially bad when I am seated upright and not moving – a seated meditation. It was very frustrating because it makes focusing on the breath or whatever visualization difficult and by the end I was spending time on my back mostly. The day wasn’t a bust, I still got a lot from it, but there was frustration that TMS pain is emerging at that time when I want to be relaxed and comfortable and aware. I also feel like meditation should be good for TMS, so that adds to my frustration. I am going through the possible triggers in my life outside of my meditation practice – and there’s probably something – but I wonder if there’s also something about practicing meditation in a group or class setting that triggers it? This sense that this is a time that I must be aware, present, relaxed etc. that can cause tension? Am I putting too much on myself to be those things? I find it challenging so maybe my perfectionist side is causing me to have anger for not being “better” a meditation? Basically, is meditation – especially in groups – a trigger for me?