During the immediate time of a catastrophic back event, there isn't much you can really do except be quiet and perhaps take a pain reliever like ibuprofen. But after the pain subsides, it's best to begin the SEP (structured education program) offered on the TMS Wiki tab above. You probably want to join this site too, introduce yourself and start working on publishing your personal story so that other members can contact you (and you them) to place your situation in perspective. What you describe is not unusual at all. And, oh yes, I do have to ask whether you have had yourself checked out my an orthodox MD to rule out any other underlying causes for your LBP and spasms? He/she will probably not uncover anything since lower back pain is so common and usually without any pathology driving it. After you've ruled out Mr C or autoimmune disorders, you'll be able to approach your condition as a mind-body disorder or PPD (psycho-physiological disorder). This site offers all kinds of ways of addressing what are probably the emotional causes for your pain. You might want to chat with other members on Saturdays during the TMS Wiki chat group. You'll probably also want to look at all the success stories on this site to give you some perspective on your own situation and how it can be healed. Reading Healing Back Pain by Dr John E. Sarno is also a very instructive first step to take if you want to understand why you're have back spasms and pain. A very instructive read!