So Day 8 of the program i'm writing about my progress so far as instructed... I have felt disheartened over the last week as the pain is still really intense. i have forced myself to swim 3 times this week and i can swim for quite a distance. I do find that i struggle to get out of the pool afterwards though with my back having been locked in the same position for 40 minutes of breast stroke, its difficult to hoist myself up the vertical pool ladder. As i expect after my swim, my back gets suddenly worse, i'm guessing this is just it's way of trying to fight me back. I would say that my back doesn't feel any better than it was 7 days ago and i'm wavering a bit with staying focused. I know the advice has been not to rush though. i have also signed up to Headspace and have been doing this meditation for the last week every day. Even though i fully believe in the TMS diagnosis, I wonder if i am holding myself back by worrying that the program isn't working. The one glimmer of hope is that for the last 3 days i have been able to bend and brush my teeth without having to lean on the sink to support my weight. This is normally one of my strongest conditioned responses so i'm holding on tight to this being a sign of improvement, even though it's the only one.